Nov/17/2005

How many of you have been or have done a rehearsal for a play, or speech? I have been rehearsing over and over in my head. I'm sick of it. I try really hard not to think about it , but I can't help it.... it is right there in my face, if I keep thinking about it I begin to cry and I'll thank God for another day with my husband. I had told my mom that I can not see myself with out him. I have been having bad dreams and Tom is not in them and I walk around hunched over, haggard looking, crying all the time. They're just dreams.

I found out that a lady in my Sunday School class had breast cancer, the doctores got it all and the left breast didn't have any. I'm happy for her, really I am....I just wished Tom didn't have any cancer. He has to go get a pet scann in Dec. to see if the Tumors have shrunk any.... I am praying really hard that they have. The kids and I need him around for many more Holidays and waaaay into the future weddings.