December/14/2005

THIS SUCKS.... THIS REALLY, REALLY SUCKS! This is "SUPPOSED" to be the fun part of the yr. Decorating cookies, Christmas shopping. I'm having such a hard time with this, I am so tired of being tired. Today at my appointment session my councelor showed me some ways to help Tom up off the floor if he falls or to get up off the couch. I did the couch one first..... I still could NOT get him up. I asked him to use his legs, he was, his butt didn't come off the couch. There is NO WAY I can do this! He is too tall and too heavey for me. If he falls on the floor there is no way I can get him up.

This is so painful, I can't help my husband. My husband stands 6 foot, I'm 5.1... go figure. His body has swollen up again, his stomache and his face I have noticed.

I'm having trouble with my writing tonight. I guess it really bothered me today that I couldn't even help my husband. This really, really sucks! I will try to write more when I stop crying.