August/16/2005

Today was Tom's first treatments, the first of many. He will take Chemo 1 day a week and Radiation EVERY DAY for the next 6 weeks. A friend of mine told me that her mother is a Cancer survivor. The treatments changed her moods, like she was mean. I'm gonna do my best to AVOID ANY conflicts with Tom. I know it will be the meds. and treatments that will make him like that.

Yesterday I saw how worried he was. Today, after his treaments he was drained of everything... I noticed his moodiness, before and after. The BEFORE was worry, the AFTER I think was a little bit of both, treatment and worry.

I do know one thing, I'll be doing alot more praying than usual. I had to leave Sunday school last Sunday. I had the biggest melt down ever. I just couldn't deal with anyone. My Sunday School teacher Catherine Jones is in St. Frances hospital..... she coded, the docs brought her back she is doing better. I do need to call her. I guess I was jealous that day. I'm seeking a miracle for Tom. I'm asking for it right away. HA! NOT GONNA HAPPEN! Well... at least not right away. God will answer on HIS OWN time. When I came back to Christ, he knew what was going to happen to us, he always know..... he could have warned me a head of time. I'm sure he did warn me, I just wasn't listening..... I'm listening now God.