when i close my eyes
i feel the warmth of a body in my arms
i can imagine our hearts beating against eachother
in unison with the gentle beat of the rain hitting the ground
as we embrace eachother throught the night
our lips touch and our souls unite
our minds connect and our voices meet
we share the secrets of our hearts
for once i feel secure and at ease
for once im calm and with understanding
i belong to one that belongs to me and its you
when i look into your eyes i fall deep inside
i fall in love with you and cherish your heart with my life
for once its happened i found you
as tears of joy roll down my cheek
i wake up...with those same tears but of pain
i look over in the bed beside me and im reminded
that you are not here
im not in love, im alone, im all alone
and you are no where to be found
i found you
but only in my dreams
i guess love isnt a reality to me
and neither are you
whoever you are
wherever you are
i love you
my dream girl
I Dont Understand
How Someone So Priceless
Could Be Treated Less Than They Are Worth
I Dont Understand
Why She Was The One
Who's Lucky Enough To Be Called Your First
I Dont Understand
Will I Ever
Know Why Your Not With Me
I Dont Understand
Will I Ever
Get A Chance To Show You That Ecstasy
My Mind Searches
My Mind Reaches
For An Answer Oh So Far
Im Searchin
Im Reachin For You
Especially With My Heart
I Was Once A Fool In Love
Yearnin For A Relationship
A Bond
Someone To Call My Own
Realized Maybe It Wasnt For Me
And It Was Meant For Me To Be Unattached And Just Hanging
On My Own.
So I Let All Of It Go
Thinkin I Could Actually Do It
Thinkin Id Manage On My Own With An Empty Heart
But Fell Once Again.
I Shouldnt Have
I
Shouldnt
Have
Should Have Just Stuck To My Word
Should Have Just Disappeared Without A Trace.
Somewhere Love Couldnt Find Me.
Its Impossible.
Love Finds Me Wherever I Go
...And Pain Seems To Tag Along With It
So I Just Run
Run
Run
As Far Away As I Can
Till I Cant Run Anymore
Im Sure It'll Still Be There Waiting
When I Finally Collapse From Fatigue
I Know I Shouldnt Run
But I Cant Help It
Im Tired Of The Pain
Im Just Simply Tired
And I Dont Know What Else To Do
Im Tired Of Bein A Fool
A Fool In Love
Dreaming That It Would Actually Be True
Dreaming That Id Be
Understood
Appreciated
Respected
Desired
Needed
Loved
What Was I Thinking
Or Was I Even Thinking At All.
How Could I Have Been Such A Fool.
:: unceartain of a destiny my heart yearns for :: puzzled and confused because im fighting this urge :: the urge is stronger than any force i've ever known :: the more i pull away the faster i'm pulled in like im in a pool of quick sand :: next thing i know i'm head deep in :: i cant tell which way is up so im sinking further and further :: without a hand to reach for to pull me from this mess :: to help me emerge from my own disaster :: created by my mind and the whirlpool of mixed emotions :: i'm without reassurance that i'm okay :: seems like im the only person thats here for me and i had to find that out the hard way :: they say their there for you but when you reach there's no one around :: they're no where to be found :: out of sight :: out of touch :: out of my mind :: all i know is what i see :: and if i dont see it how could it exist to me and be a part of my reality :: so yes i doubt :: i doubt until im given reason to doubt no more :: seems like no one wants to work for love anymore :: they just take the next best thing :: which usually isnt whats best for them at all :: anywayz im used to flyin solo :: even when i thought i was apart of something it was artificial :: unreal :: breakable :: and eventually it was destroyed as well as my feelings :: makes you wonder what this thing is :: why do i yearn for it :: the search for it is only breakin me down to the point wher ei dont want to find it :: how will i know its real :: it has so many imposters :: so many disguises :: how to tell which one is fake from the beginnin is somethin i have yet to accomplish :: i dont think i ever will :: is it really worth all this struggle :: this battle to find it :: to finally hold it and say it belongs to me :: maybe its not meant to be contained in the hearts of everyone :: i think im one of the people that should do with out it :: i try :: but i cant :: it keeps calling me :: and i keep listening :: lovez call is the loudest thing i've ever heard :: i hear it when im not listening :: even those that cant hear knows when it calls :: the vibrations flow thru your body and you cant help but hear :: you cant help but listen :: so it makes you open your eyes and look :: but it cant be seen so i end up leading myself blind into a dead end :: seems like these dead ends close off soon as i get there :: there's no escaping :: it instead killz me inside :: and i become the reason its a dead end :: therez no turning back on a one way street :: gotta keep going forward :: but how ::