I called the insurance company AGAIN because I can't bring myself to call Samantha and bug her. Last week when I called they said that they just needed ONE MORE FORM, just ONE MORE piece of information- THEN I would be approved. Today's lady said she wasn't part of the medical review process, so she didn't know about "any of that." Frustrating!!!! But I might email Samantha and ask her what she's found out, and see if she can get some more insight into it.
This past weekend I finally told my best friend Karen about the surgery and that I was waiting for an approval from the insurance company. She was so supportive and encouraging. Until then I had only told my husband. Some of my colleagues at school know now, but I gave them a more vague version- I don't know what I want to tell people. Maybe I'll know more about what I want to tell them when I get a date. Now I'm thinking about what I should tell my family and other friends, how I should tell them. I am reluctant to say anything until I am officially approved and I have a surgery date SET. Even if it's set in December, I want it to be set before "going public."
I AM APPROVED!!!
Wow, this is amazing. I'm shocked, speechless. I can't believe that it's really going to happen. Now it's just time to psche myself up for "the real thing." Scary. But everyone is so helpful. The alumni are wonderful- they'll tell you anything you want to know about what's going to happen. I'm glad I know what to expect for the most part. It's stressful- happy and scared all at once. I still don't know who all I am going to tell and what I'm going to tell them! So far the only ones who know are my husband, my best friend Karen, my parents, and our pastor (who is a wonderful guy- very understanding and supportive!). I don't know if I can deal with all the emotional stuff that goes along with telling people. The worst part is all the questions, I think- and feeling like I have to explain myself and justify my decision. But I haven't really told many people, maybe it will get better. It's just that it's such a hard thing to talk about, especially with people I'm not super-close to. Touchy subject. But I'll figure something out. I still can't believe it's really happening!!!
Just wanted to check in and note that the support group lists that I've joined are really helpful. I'm in two so far- the general OSSG list and the OSSG Christian list. They are very honest and very encouraging! I also went to school and did some work today- we plan to leave for Rhode Island on Thursday and I want to be all set for the start of school when we return. Still have a lot to get done. I saw Mary and Regina while I was there today- we talked about the surgery a little. I'm glad they are so supportive, it makes me feel so much better!!! I plan on sending out an email soon to my friends and family letting them know about the surgery, I just haven't decided how I'm going to phrase it all quite yet. Something will come to me, I suppose.