Forget Me Not 

 Tossed in the sleepless 
    and dream-filled raining night
 I am pulled by Fortune's drive
    and desire, ambitions checked
 My free will crashes within me
    like lightning and thunder
 Against the bad turns and addictions
    that determine my course.
 Where are you God?
    I don't want to see you
 Where are you God?
    I'm scared of your presence.

 Sitting in the dull classroom,
    desperately I want direction.
 Am I predestined to the mad chaos
       of outside and inside?
 Cannot I choose the truth
    and be set free to relearn
         What love and trust are
    if I ever knew -  if - 
 But the rebellious point me to Nature.
    I blindly pray "Perfect love casts out fear."
 Where are you God?
    I don't want to see you.
 Where are you God?
   I'm scared of your presence.


Hammer and nail on top a roof
    slide from my clumsy hands.
 I am sent to do a job 
    that gravity fights me over
 And over again; my head is held up
   awaiting the appointed law.
 Every foundation that is built on 
   calls for a test of tides.
Earthquakes of the heart
    flow from the pains of reality.
 Where are you God?
    I don't want to see you.
 Where are you God?
    I'm scared of your presence.

I will obey despite my lack
    of understanding; my darkness
 Is relieved by the sunlight 
    that I never imagined could shine.
My every mistake brings me closer
    if only I would accept the warmth.
My every success raises my head
    just a little higher; let me not be blind.
 If I have lost my way in this city,
        tell me, "Perfect love casts out all fear."
 There you are God,
    absent from a cross.
        There you are God,
    drawing me into your presence.



Paul Lanier 

The music is "Too Much Time on My Hands" from Mickey's Midi Collection.

The background is from Window's Screen Themes.

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