| August 1998. Yellowstone National Park. I was on vacation with my mom, brother, my Aunt Michelle and her family. My mother had just returned with my aunt after being gone for about 3 hours. My brother got into the front seat and I got into the backseat of her car. My mom was in the driver's seat and she was crying. She told me my grandmother had passed away. My first thought was Goldie, my 92 year old Great Grandmother. It never struck me that my grandmother had gone. When I left to visit my mom for the summer she seemed in perfect health. She had quit smoking six months prior and I thought she was going to be around for a long time to come. It came as quite a shock and I cried often for the next few days. It was the first time in my life I had ever experienced such a painful loss. I had lost friends and family before, but never someone so close or someone I loved so much. She was very important to me, and the thought that I would never see her again is one of the most painful things I've ever had to deal with in my entire life. Luckily, I had the chance to spend some quality time with her the few years before she left us. I told her I loved her often, but after she was gone it seemed like it was never enough. She did so much for me and there will always be an empty place in my life without her around. I still have the memories though. I will never forget her cooking dinner for me while my dad was at work. The times we just sat and talked helped me through my teen angst or should I say the years I was filled with "Piss and Vinegar". The holidays while she was around were always more special. There are so many times I am glad she was there. I could go on for days remembering my grandmother, but all that time would only solidify one true and undeniable fact, I love her and I will miss her for the rest of my life. Jake |
|
Created on ... March 1, 2005