How am I supposed to think? Can I feel? My hands are numb, my feet oh no my dick is dumb and the rain came down plucked my sight elevation, elevation, elevation how am I supposed to think now? What's in my head now? Like a cheap parlor trick slight of hand and the blood covers a soul, any day now what do I feel when I awake? Where am I from when I am lost? I feel so low, I said my hands are numb, my feet oh no, elevation I said my hands are numb, my feet oh no, elevation and every time I get up they're pulling me down, can't get my feet up off the ground, I said my hands are numb, My feet oh no, how am I supposed to think, now?
Too Much Nothing
Too much nothing I'm always excusing myself but now it's getting hard to tell the reason why I even care increasingly I'm unaware instead of bettering myself I'm crawling deeper in my shell too much the whole point that I am alive seems to escape me at this time time I think too much nothing too much I've never known how to behave I think too much I've never strayed far from the grave nothing too much I need to get up off the ground nothing too much to force myself to make a sound
Ego Trip
With a guilt ridden frown hidden smiling deep down laughing at the crowd nauseating sound as the blind lead the blind on a crusade for sight corralled in the corner this leash is too tight I can't keep up this act please expand the role choking on dialogue you've all heard before with a guilt ridden frown hidden smiling deep down dying inside paint a smile on this clown tainted face jaded by disgrace regurgitate your faith fornicate your mind all that hides inside roll around, defecate, compensate the mess you made no escaping, from the end ego trip-punishment falling down you can't get up nothing left to land on
Mandy Lascko
Mommy
Mother may I? Mother may I please go outside and play? Don't put me back in the dark I promise I will not tell anyone mother may I? Mother may I please share our little secret of love? The way that you touch me, should I feel shame? Mother may I? Mother may I please feel your warm embrace? Mother may I? I feel your hands on my face no you can't go out but you may cum inside of me mother may I please feel you?
2nd Thoughts
I hold your throat within my naked hand I can never hope to have you hear my word I lose control at the sight of blood I visit you through six feet of soil, bitch! get up get up get up get up get down I'm mad as hell, mad as hell why can't you understand the words shut up? shut up Why, in God's name did you think you ruled the world? I am the punch line jokes can be cruel hi honey I'm home I've lost my soul, you swallowed my heart whole, choke! get up get up get up get up get down I'm mad as hell, mad as hell
Indifferent
Distraught in deprived thought within a golden rave I make it a point of being pointless pointless brainwash it all away distressed and I detest distressed and I detest vain in a shade of gray vain in a shade of gray telegraphing all of my punches couldn't fight couldn't fight my way out of a cardboard box and in my own small way I make an indifferent, difference I realize, I fantasize, I apologize I'm sorry crawling under a rock I hold up a white flag I hold up a white flag I could of been, I should of been I'm just a has been I hold up a white flag responsibility, rationale, religion I hold my head down in disgust distressed and I detest distraught in deprived thought
Simpleton
Beat like a dog, pissing all over shit on the rug, lie down and roll over, shove my nose in the floor make me think about what I have done pledge your dependencies, soon jealousies, tendencies turn secrets we share, into weapons of warfare, bleed like the creep that I have become face down in shit and I want you to beat me senseless what have I done, it's just begun face down in shit and I want you to beat me senseless
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Mind hemorrhage fuckin' folding chairs in the hallway crucified, paralyzed, you laugh, I cry calculating my miscalculations what is the sign for I'm choking to death? There's something caught in my throat could it be something I've said? Sighted blind, Braille is fine, two black eyes, are you a badass or just a fuckin' asshole? There's too much, not enough God and dog well I've seen a dog I'll take my chances and sleep like a log, hard in the ground, dig? God, dog, God, dog agnostic, insomniac, dyslexic I'm wide awake and I'm wondering if there is a dog