My own face
Is my disgrace
I feel ashamed
Again
Looked in the mirror
For someone there
Nothing is clearer
Except my insanity
Chorus
My piece of mind
Feels just like a stone
Is it my own?
It's unknown
Can't feel my pain
Or my restrain
Can't Find Love
Above
Far from youth
Is my truth
Though people surround
Feel alone
Repeat Chorus
Helplessness
Is sometimes bliss
I will miss
Happiness
Darkness
Envelopes me
I can not see
Me
Repeat chorus
Tortured and battered
My dreams have been shattered
And I have lost the will
Wearing a frown
they see that I am down
And go in for the kill
Dark thoughts and dreams
Saturate it seems
And begin to weigh me down
If there is a king
Of misery
Then I am wearing the crown
Chorus:
When I die
No respect need be paid
Just come to my headstone
And piss all over my grave
When the glares hurt
I can't find comfort
In my own abode
Lately it seems
That all I can be
Is the whole worlds commode
There is no need
To feel sorry for me
I do that for myself
I am here to say
That I will lead the way
And see you all in hell
Repeat Chorus
Bridge:
I imagine
That this is all in my head
But we won't know for sure
Until I am dead
(hack solo)
I cannot think
When I am in the drink
My head just above the water
I take the hits
I am like a pig
Being lead to the slaughter
Existince in strife
I cannot enjoy life
There seems to be only one way out
And then I contend
I will find peace in the end
But even then I have my doubts
You were never good to me
Put my mind in misery
Asked me to be happy
And I won't even try
Take everything good to me
And rip it all away from me
Just don't let me be
And let my spirit die
Now I am blind I cannot see
There is life right in front of me
But it seems so far from me
And I begin to cry
Now I know I need to change
I can never be the same
Break free from these chains
And I being to fly
I Hate You!!!
Thought everything would be just great
But my love just turned to hate
Now my mind is nothing but waste
I sit and fry
Now there is nothing here for me
Except what blinded eyes can see
So I get up and take my leave
And I won't say goodbye
I Hate You!!!
Lost forever in a dream
Just a puddle of spit, in a long and winding stream
I try to swim out, but I am running out of steam
I am not as together, as I seem
And I'm just
Chorus:
Pretending
Pretending
Pretending
I'm doing OK
Just a mosquito, in a dark and violent sky
Where the blues have gone away, but so blue am I
I try to escape, but I have forgotten how to fly
Outside I am happy, Inside I cry
Repeat chorus
Bridge:
It's not as hard as it seems
Won't you come along, and pretend with me
I am just a splinter in a raging forest fire
Where everything is bright, except my future's in dire
Everyday, I wait for my funeral pyre
Until then in my dream, I mire
All my life I've been around people who put me down
they see me flying high and they kick me to the ground
Self confidence is something that I lack
You took it away and now I got to get it back
Chorus:
Back to reality
I can't be what you want me to be
Go live your fantasy
I got to get back to reality
Back to reality
I can't stand your mentality
I gotta get my sanity
Got to get back to reality
You broke my spirit and you put me to shame
But if I am not happy now I have my self to blame
variation of bridge
repeat chorus
You would not let me be happy because you were sad
Now your life is all f**ked up and I am glad
variation of bridge
repeat chorus
You are the only, the one for me
In no other woman beauty I can't see
I am happy I will not flee
Change myself, and let you be
And I love you
Yes I do
With a woman like you, my heart need not mend
And all my dreams I am more than glad to end
Who needs happiness, just pretend
With a lover like you, who needs friends
Oh how I love it, when I hear that whip crack
Just take my spirit and break it in half
Take my spine right out of my back
And take my balls right out of my sack