Well, I felt like a huge idiot. I kept getting myself into these really dumb situations. I wasn't sure what I should do. I mean, there are these two great guys, and I know that I can only have one of them, and both of them seem to really like me, but it won't be for very much longer if I kept lying to them. I had to decided what I was going to do.
"Uh, hi Jerry. This is Chris. I think you met him the other day?" I couldn't think of anything else to say.
"Yeah. I do remember him. I remember that he was 'just a friend' from the other night. I don't know about you, but I don't usually kiss my 'friends' like that. Maybe you do, but where I come from, we don't do that."
This really sucked. I didn't know what to say to him. I just kinda stared at him.
I'm such and idiot! I thought.
Finally, I had stared long enough that Jerry just walked off in a huff.
Should I run after him? I thought, but I decided against it. Chris was still there. But he wasn't impressed.
"Chris, let me explain..." I started, but was interupted.
"Explain what? What the hell is going on? You said that he and you were over. You said you'd moved on. What am I supposed to believe? Do you always lie this much? Or is it just with those you care about? If that's how you feel about me anyways," he said.
"It's not like that, Chris. I went out with him a couple of times, but I'm serious about him. And I really like you. We just met though. I didn't know that I was just going to meet you. I couldn't help what happened. You and I just sort of happened." I hoped that was a good enough explaination.
"We 'just sort of happened'? Is that supposed to be a good thing? What are you saying? That you regret something that happened?" He was getting really pissed off now. I didn't like where this was going.
"No, I don't regret anything. I am really happy right now. I really want to get to know you better. I think we have a good thing going."
"Well, I don't think I can be with someone who lied right from the start. I don't know if I can trust someone like that. Whatever. I'm out of here" He got up and left.
"Chris! Chris, wait! It's not..." Too late, he was gone. I can't believe he used the word "whatever" that's so stupid. But I really liked him, and I didn't want us to end. I thought we would go somewhere with our relationship.
I went home and called Chris. I left a message on his machine. I didn't think he was going to pick up anyways. I appologized, but it was all I could do but wait.
I decided that day that I wanted Chris, not Jerry. I just hoped that Chris felt the same way. I hated this waiting game...
