My Perkins group. They are all good to me. Very sweet and accepting. All of them are open minded, smart, funny and are a joy to listen to. I will name them all individually in my friends page. I am much tamer now though, I do go to a few intriguing parties a year. Bender, Slaughter Stock and Valley Con, they will all be discussed in a bit. I have discovered the joy of just bullshitting with people and learning about them and their intrests. I am currently in my 2nd year of college and am soon moving to Socorro, New Mexico.
Yes, as of summer I am moving 1500 miles away to uncharted territory to finish school and to make new friends and become better aquianted with some old ones. There are many reasons I am leaving.
#1 my mom and dad's health. Basically my mom has a terminal illness. She has fibromyalsia. It slowly is killing her and deterioating her body. Latly she has added high blood pressure, high cholestorl, migraines, arthritis, osteoporosis and dangerously high and low blood pressure to her health problems. I am not running away because she is sick, but I can't just sit idoly by and watch her get worse. I feel too helpless and she camplains alot to me and begs me to something to help her pain subside. I can't help her and it kills me.
#2 I have been attacked in this town. Not raped!!! I am strong when I need to be and can defend myself. However, seeing these people on a weekly basis doesn't help me enjoy my time here.
#3 I have lived in this town all my life and am just itching to find more. I need a new atmosphere and to see more of the world. Socorro is a beautiful place compared to this cold climate I live in now. I have about a half dozen friends in Socorro as well, so I won't be completly alone.
#4 I am 20 and need to get out and start my life :)
Updated: 1/05/03
New Years eve
I went to a party New Years Eve. I thought about not putting this entry in due to its real private but I decided I control who sees this for the most part and it will better for me to talk about what happend. You can dodge the bullet forever I learned that. In the legal sence I was raped New Years. I fell asleep in the living room of the house the party was at. I was not drunk to set the record straight. Well While I was sleeping this 16 yr old boy decided he was gonna help himself and licked me. Now If I have to draw u a diagram I will, but I think u understand what I mean. I was sleeping I am not sure how long he was doing this. I woke up and felt it and saw him he does not know I saw him. Killing him has come to mind as a way to deal with him, but I am going to work on a more realistic aproach. I am for sure going to kick him in the nuts and give him a black eye, but other than that I am not sure. However, just to let people know I am dealing with this and will be ok. I am stronger than I look. It is a minor set back in my life. This kid will pay and I will be ok once again.
