Ain't It So Sad

I'm just trying,

To get through the day,

But I'm sliding,

Every which way.

I need to stop and breathe,

But I got no time in the sleeve.

Yet I have nothing to do,

No where to go,

Nothing to show,

For these 19 years.

What I once had,

Was washed away in tears.

Ain't it so sad?

My name,

Is still the same,

But where I came,

All you see is rain.

When I was sane,

There was nothing to do to change,

That could have rearranged,

What would be.

Now I can't see,

And everything's gone,

So fucking wrong,

That it's hard to believe,

That I once wasn't diseased.

Ain't it so sad?

Look at me in the picture frame,

Can you tame,

The feeling,

You're concealing,

From me,

You know the one,

That asks,

Can that ton,

On your back,

Be lifted,

If you just shifted,

This way or that?

It just gets heavier,

For every step forward,

That I take.

It's all for the sake,

Of living life.

Ain't it so sad?

All I want is a slice,

Something I can taste,

Yet not enough to waste.

In my haste,

I probably lose this race,

But saving face,

Is all I got to chase.

Ain't it so sad?