| I lost my first child a few years back but then I think I was young and didn't understand what really was happening. But it hurt just the same.I fellt I'm young there will be others. When I was told that I would never have children I slipt into a depression that I can't even find words to discribe. I was a lost soul and had nothing to comfort me, so I just drifted away from everything. I almost lost my life , my marrage, and any hope. My husband Mike tried it all to bring me out and he has really been put through it by me. He decided to finally buckle down and find me a house and start a new life. Well the house we bought was listed by a little silver haired man named Calvin Helms. He attended a chruch named New Hope Baptist church. This man has always had a special place with me because of this and I posted a poem By my friend that was written and dedicated to him. But my neighbor across the road also attended this church and between the two of them I went to that church, A few months later, on one end of my couch I called apon the name of the Lord to save me. Then to my surprise less than a month later Mike was saved at the other end. Then two years later to the day I was saved I found out I was preganat, Then that July I lost the first little girl, then less than 3 weeks later in August I lost her sister. It is always hard to deal with this when it is one but for it to be two less than weeks apart is truely the most horrific feeling anyone could feel. I wouldn't wish that apon anybody. I still haven't delt with it completely. I cry alot and I pray alot but I know that if he could give me children after years of trying that when he is ready for me he will give them to me again. And I just never loose sight of him. He is my rock and I know he will get me threw. I hope that in reading this that it will help you. I could see his hand in all of this and I hope that what ever you are facing that you can see him too. |
