Ah, my dear friends, you are all bitter selfish assholes, but I would have it no other way. People in New York are pissed off for some indescribable reason. It's something that we feel in our bones but can never put into words. We are not a simple people. We lead labyrinthine lives full of complex thoughts and actions. I fit in well in New York. And I will always consider it my one and only home.
Complexity is a foreign concept in much of the country in both thought and in action. The people here in warrenton are simple people, who live dangerously close to the precipice of mental retardation. They are people who propose laws to regulate the sale of baking soda. People who give their children half a day off from school every other week and wonder why they are so far behind the national average. Confusion is bread into these people. The young and the old. The most educated are at best could be considered developmentally disabled.
I have not carried an intelligent conversation with someone in over 3 months, and so my mind is in a constant state of overload. I have debates with myself over matters of religion and politics. And my views on both are becoming considerably darker. In 3 months I have gone from agnostic to atheist. I have gone from liberal republican to god knows what. I'm not sure what you label someone who who'd dance naked in the woods with joy if the capitol burned to the ground, killing all the dirty politicians in the process.
I'm starting to realize that where I am is the real America. New York, L.A., St Louis, Boston, Philidelphia, places of civilization, are the minority in this country. The well educated should be the elite, but they are not. This country is run from the back country of Texas and the hills of West Virginia and the Ozarks. Where the simpletons rule and spread their ignorance. The well educated New Yorkers and Californians are charged taxes that their people will never see the benefits from. They will go to rebuild a city under the sea in Louisiana, and to pave swamp lands in Florida. We will pay to put politicians in office that will place bans on baking soda and lower our educational standards.
This country will continue to be run by the dumbfounded majority. They will continue to shout "America is the greatest nation on earth" from their backwoods hilltops, and ignore the facts that say we are not. Its great leaders will come from places where discount bible stores and anti-human progress billboards line the horizon. Well I think that's enough on that rant for now. I'm sure you get the idea.
So am I crazy? No, at least I don't think I am. I am however, angry. I am disgusted. I am discouraged. I am sad to live in the greatest nation in the world. Why you ask? I am a solitary figure lost amidst a sea of stupidity, just trying to find my way home. So while much of my recent writings may seem to border on crazy, I assure you I am quite sane. Indeed, I am saner than ever. Sobriety has changed me, and I have become unnumbed. The craziness is merely an illusion I will be home in seemingly no time at all, but it is a place I can only visit now. My new home, for now, is here. I am like Jane Goodall living amongst the apes, and I now know, even if I return home I will never be the same. . .