My name is Kelly (26 yrs. old) and my husband's name is Joel (29 yrs. old) and we have been married for two years. We met in Oct. 1997 and we got married in June 1999. We wanted a family right away so I got off birth control pills about 8 months before we got married b/c I was told that sometimes it takes a year to get pregnant after being on birth control so I wanted to make sure it was out of my system.............we tried from the day we got married till I got pregnant this year ....... so it took a little over a year! I found out I was pregnant on March 6, 2001 and I had to take two tests to make sure it really was positive...........I couldn't believe it!!!!! I was estatic. My husband was at the gym with my brother playing raquetball when I decided to take the test! I called him at the gym to tell him the great news too, he was estatic..................he left the gym and came home early! We were so happy we didn't know what to do.
My best friend had found out she was pregnant about a month earlier, so it was going to be great, her and I pregnant at the same time! Then not three days later my sister-in-law found out she was pregnant with her second child......and come to find out she was four days ahead of me.......I was due November 17, 2001 and she was due November 13, 2001! This was great................we were all pregant together and my sister-in-law and I both see the same obgyn also so who knew, we may deliver the same day.............haha, wouldn't that be neat!
Anyway, my pregnancy progressed on and I never got sick or anything, the only really thing I felt was exausted all the time...............other than that I felt great and I could feel our baby moving around........it was wonderful. I loved being pregnant! I had an ultrasound at 5 weeks, 6 days and another at 7 weeks 6 days and then had my triple screen done at 17 weeks, which came back elevated (AFP) so my obgyn sent me to a perinatologist specialist to have a Level II ultrasound done, but assured me that there have been many false positives, elevated AFP and the baby was fine so not to worry b/c we were more than likely not going to find anything wrong with our baby!
On June 11, 2001 a week after we celebrated our 2nd anniversary we went to have the Level II ultrasound done and the tech was just taking picture after picture and we were watching our little one move all around on the screen and we asked if she could tell the sex and she said she wasn't positive, but thought it was a little girl. The doctor came in and didn't say a word, just keep looking and taking pictures and then finally he said "get dressed and meet me in my office I have some bad news" I will never forget that, I can't believe he told me that and just left the room. It seemed like it took me forever to get dressed and my husband and I and my mother all went into the doctors office and sat down and he proceeded to tell us what was wrong, he told us that our baby had the worst condition that it could have had (Spina Bifida & Anencephaly)................ I just bawled........I couldn't catch my breath! I couldn't believe this was happening to our child! Why me is all I kept asking over and over! My husband and I just held each other and cried! Our options were to carry to term, which the doctor said wouldn't be a good idea b/c ones who carry to term have very difficult labor and usually never deliver on their due dates, they usually go way past their due dates, or we could have a D & E. We didn't get the option of being induced!
So, as we walked out of the hospital I felt so lost and sick that I ran to the trash can and threw up..............I was so upset, we wanted this baby more than anything in the world.
We ended up deciding that a D & E was the way to go for us. So, on June 14, 2001 I went in and had a D & E and our little baby was born to heaven that day! They tested her tissue and blood to check for chromosomal defects to see if maybe this might have been genetic. The test results didn't come back until 2 months after I had the D & E and they came back saying that there were no chromosomal or genetic defects so that was wonderful news for us and also that our baby was a little girl. Our doctors have told us that there should be no reason why we shouldn't try again or that there should be no reason we wouldn't get pregnant again! We were told to start trying again after having two normal cycles.
Anyway, five weeks past the D & E I finally got what I thought was a normal period, lasted five days as normal and then the day after I stopped. I was at work and felt something so I went to the restroom b/c I thought maybe I wasn't finished so I sat down on the toilet and then a gush of blood just came out as if I was urinating, but it was all blood and wouldn't stop coming out! I cleaned myself up finally and ran to get my mom and my husband (we all work at my fathers company) and they said I needed to go to the hospital so my husband rushed me to the hospital and called my doctor's office on the way to the hospital and they wanted me to come there so we went there and they did a bunch of tests, blood tests to check my hcg levels, ultrasound, etc. The blood had stopped by the then so while they were waiting for the blood test results they let me go back to work. I felt weak and sick b/c of losing so much blood! My husband took me back to work and I wasn't there 10 - 15 minutes and the blood started gushing again so I called them back and they told me to take 800 mg of Ibprofren every 8 hours................I did and that stopped the bleeding so finally we got the results back and my hcg levels were elevated so they thought maybe I was pregnant again or there was placenta left from the D & E. Anyway I continued to have my hcg levels checked every couple of days for about two weeks and they remained elevated but were dropping slowly so she had me go to have another ultrasound to determine exactly what may have been causing this and to find out if there was some placental tissue left in my uterus causing the bleeding and my hcg levels to be elevated so I was told that I would need another D & C so I was scheduled to have a D & C on August 13, 2001 and everything went fine and they removed the tissue from my uterus.
I was told to wait for a normal period and then the following month we could ttc again. I had a normal period in September and we have started ttc again so we are just waiting to see if my period comes this month again or maybe we have conceived. I will keep you posted as to the results! If we aren't pregnant this month we will continue to try until we achieve a healthy pregnancy!
I miss being pregnant, I loved everything about it! It's so hard to look and see that my belly is gone, I miss it so much! I long to have a healthy baby to spend the rest of my life with to share all our love with! I'm missing that in my life!
We named our little girl, Morgan Diann! I have set up several memorials for her, the links are on her webpage! Morgan Diann - born to heaven June 14, 2001!
Update: God has answered our prayers! I just found out I am pregnant again! Estimated due date is August 11, 2002.
