If you're getting what you're coming for, you best get there on time
And all the things I ever knew turned out to be wrong
The only thing I ever ask you to do - Remind me not to count on you
You'll never look around and see a different me
Doesn't even matter
Don't ask what I deserve - Ask me what I've earned
You like to say we grew apart
But I'm the one who grew
Frantic in my dream to be anyone but you
I see myself in black and white
And colors faded cold
And by your face I know what I'll look like when I'm old
You can't stand to watch me fly
Hate the fact that now I'm free
Doesn't even matter
You always told me I was yours - But I'm mine outside that door
Twenty-five long years ago you held my tiny hand
And told me how my daddy left, not just you, but me
And older now, I envy him, and wonder if he knows
How I gave up hoping for him sixteen years ago
Sins of the father visited, but not the way you'd think
Doesn't even matter
You're a thousand miles away - I close my eyes and see you plain as day
Just like it was yesterday, the first and last time I ran away
Just three short years ago, I told you what you had to know
How could you not just see it was your sin visited on me
How could you let it slide, my downfall standing at your side
And all my sad disgrace - blind to the truth staring in your face
You said I wasn't strong - I don't think you could be more wrong
You're the one who chose to stay - I'm the one who walked away
7/11/00
