Rollercoaster
 
 

Right now I'm so high
I feel as if I could touch the sky
Everything's possible
Nothing's out of reach
But soon I feel myself falling
Sinking into a deep dark well
Getting into a thick black shell
I stare into space
And I feel out of place
I'm alone but not free
There's a force keeping me locked inside
Making me wanna do nothing but hide
I'm disturbed by the voices that boom through my head
Making me think that I'm better off dead
I fear the hands that are pushing me down
So sad I wear a permanent frown
Paranoid everyone's teaming up against me
Worried that I'll never be able to see
The light again.
I see nothing but darkness
And my head starts to spin
Should I just give in and let these forces win?
My insides scream and I long to redeem
My previous light-hearted, carefree self
Just as I'm about to hit the ground
A hand grabs mine
And drags me up floor by floor
Until I feel myself starting to soar
All that surrounds me right now is light
Everything suddenly looks lovely and bright
My soul sings; I've got wings
I am finally free
It feels like whatever I'll do I'll win
So happy I wear a permanent grin
I get kind of manic
With no worries; no panic
But soon like a bang
I feel myself being sucked down again
Heading to the deep dark hole
Every shred of happiness escaping from my soul
Entering the next stage of a neverending cycle
Whether I'm on the happy or sad end of my shift
Whether I'm falling or being given a lift
And whether or not I wanna be there
My life is a journey on a rollercoaster.
 

© 26 August 1998