Despair
 
 

My life has become a maze of despair
In which all day I sit and I stare
And I see a sight around me
Which with hell can compare
People stand mocking; "I like you" they lie
But when I confront them all this they deny
It's just not fair
I do all my best and get nothing in return
While I watch others who with no pain seem to gain
All the things I desire
I stand in the crowd
But I can't be more lonely
For though many in number
It's me and me only
Everyone else is out there to get me
Though the room is full
My soul is empty
In the past I've been disillusioned
To believe that I'd been accepted
Only to find out that
Once more I'd been rejected
Shadows close down on me from every direction
No-one can like me till I'm close to perfection
I shut out the world, cast a shell over me
But despite all this I can never be free
From the looks and the stares and the comments
Which rain upon me like torrents
I wish my time on earth would fly
So that I could finally lay down and die.
 

© 28 January 1998