It's Written In the Stars: My Journal
A lot of people don't believe in fairy tales, there are also a bunch who do. I'm one that does. For so many reasons. To me and a bunch of my friends my life was a Cinderella Story. There were no step sisters. No stepmother. My dad lived a way for about 4 years of my life, though I saw him every other weekend. See my Parents got a divorce and from then on my life was ruff. My brother and sister where pain in the buts and my mother treated me like a child. I may not have been Cinderella in a physical sense. But I was in a emotional sense...but then. My sophomore year high school my life changed. It started in P.E. class. A friend of mine introduced me to a cute nice guy though at the time we said nothing more then hi and didn't talk for about 3 months then we slowly started being drawn to each other well in April he asked me to his prom (o did I mention he was a senior). I'll admit I thought it was a lat April fools or something I couldn't believe it the guy I had talked to mom and Rachel to asked ME out I was like wow...so we went to prom and that's when it struck me I he was my prince. I know it was only a month of us being together before the dance but it was heaven and it still is. after we started to really date things got bad at home. My mom and I had had a argument and I talked Slakk into going to Spokane to go to school in January instead of waiting for me to graduate. Well he did and boy was in a struggle on both our accounts...well after I turned 18 went to prom I moved to Spokane a month after I graduated. And now every day is heaven.
Since living here I have learned a lot about my self my likes dislikes. I have even started to open up. Though I have yet to venture out in to Spokane on my own I see my self doing so at some point in my life and when I do I will do great. Ever since I was little I had a hard time getting used to new places being pressured and hating moving. My boyfriend doesn't pressure me or anything of that sort, he realized that I'm shy and don't like new areas.
There are a lot of people who have stood by me my boyfriend my best friend. But there is also my dad. Him and me are best friends and talk about everything. He is always there for me. He taught me a bunch of stuff and will continue to do so...things like war-gaming and how to sail. On the weekends when I'm with him we did all sorts of stuff with him...its hard to now since I'm away form him but we still talk all the time. When I was little my nickname was Seaweed. god knows why but I think it has something to do with I'm so slippery when it comes to being on the boat always doing what I want having fun. And with dad there is also my grandparents. I love them lots. They have just moved so we might not have our Christmas gathering but we will manage...ill at least send a card or something. They have been there for the best and the worst and I love them for it. And there is also my mom my step dad and my brother and sister. Since I had moved out things have been getting better, we all have our own reasons for things and we all have have yet to truly forgive each other, but with time it is getting easier for us all. My mom is a beautiful woman and my step dad is a hard core NASCAR fan my sister is part of the sophomore fashion police...well at least to me...o and my brother he is a play-station computer gamer freak. but I love them all.
And now here is where the journal starts .
November 10, 2003
Slakk has school and work today. so I was hanging out and I realized I had to write some letters to my family I had not done so in a while I called my mom yesterday said hi to my step dad...wow was he in a bad mood....he lost the race and the guy he didn't want to win won... so ya. I have been coming up with all sorts of ideas for this web-page. I'm a friend of mine can come over to visit during her winter break. I was hoping my mom and step dad could but they will be to busy for the rest of the year which is ok. so long as they come over at some point. Today my cat also got used to the cat door...see we had a in but there was no flap on it...and now that there is one...they didn't like it but she finally used I'm so proud of my kitty...she is so cute, she try's to be big and bad but she is not. More of a cute freak. Today me and slakk worked on the site some more...I about him nuts trying to find a curtain pick to go behind one of my poems still cant find it. We also learned that he wont be going to work. Kind a maid me mad o thought temporary job would last at least a month but the lady called and it ended after a week and a half....but hey no complaints more time with him tonight we are going to watch the second matrix. I'm not to impressed by the matrix don't get me wrong I like it but he is a whole lot more into it then I am...kinda like I love romance movies but he don't really care...lol. We watched the movie late last night after we finished the laundry it was ok...to much prophecy on and on talking. but the action was ok...drawn out a bit but hey o well...now I get to go see the next one...he so owes me.
November 11, 2003
Today was a good day we went to the mall and hung around at home. Slakk didn't have to go to school this morning since its a holiday. We went to look for Apps. but no luck. I showed His grandma the sweater I wanted for Christmas I might get it its between that and a Tea kettle for the stove she doesn't have one...and things don't taste as good after they where done in the microwave. The only down side of the day was....CRAMPS...oy I hate them so the trip to the mall was cut short but instead I took a nap we hung some lights and we ended up having a good day. I was hoping to get a email from my dad or grandparents but no luck well maybe tomorrow so good night. sweet dreams.
November 13, 2003
well last night was a good night we watched a movie did our popcorn in bed as we watched lord of the rings. I love strider...hehehe...so cool, ya sure legolas is nice...I want strider. Slakk got me to hum him to sleep...I don't know why but I don't like it when people hear me hum or sing...the says have a great voice...I don't really believe him but o well. It felt nice to sleep in this morning don't know why but I just wanted to stay under the covers...but na I got up and stared typing to every one...its so cool I got a email from my grandparents....yay. well today was good. nearly had 3 yes 3 heart attacks...one was traffic oy...not good with traffic. the second I was washing slakk's grandmas nice dishes...well I nearly dropped a cup I had a bit of heart attack...oy. then I was drying the plates...it flipped out of my hand in the air and I caught it I don't know how....but man did my heart hurt. our movie for tonight is sweet home Alabama...its a good movie. I got a bit grrr and j he got 3 games today they where only about 5 bucks each but still...he we left with about nothing. I know he gets paid tomorrow but oy. well I also spent like 2 and 1/2 hours at the mall when he had a interview filled out 2 apps one at a electronic store one as a security officer. I think he should be a security officer...stay out of the electronics, but that's just me. well time for the movie. byes.
Novermber 17, 2003
Long time no write I know. we have been pretty busy here....for example slakk might have a new job and a new dog. Her name is kia we get to pick her up today isn't it great. she is a 1 year old German Shepard mix...o she is so lovely. slakk is happy. kia is his birthday and Christmas present. I would love for some one to tell me the reason for nightmares. I have been having nightmares for the past week and they are getting worse. in one I marred this one armed patch of his eye forcing me to marry him creep...sad part is his name is slakk....the same dream I went to see cali and I beat her up with a metal baseball bat, but cali looked like my sister. I was so confused I woke up in a cold sweat and scared for my life...another one some aliens came and they tried to destroy the human race except for me and 3 other girls...but we ended up pinning the aliens in a corner...and one by one we killed them. some I don't remember including last nights but it wasn't good at all. the other day me and slakk went to see the matrix reloaded...I think that's the one...but I couldn't get in cause I have no ID...so I was a bit ticked so we went and got 5 movies and watched them...one was the hulk don't see it it sucks. And one was finding nemo...thats movie totally rocked. well the doggy is all moved it and doing great...and so is J. that's all for now byes.
November 18, 2003
well last night was a long one kia wanted out every 2 hours....so slakk did so...I was feeling sick so I didn't want to get up today. slakk had his interview was bad i guess as far as he told me. we are waiting for electronics boutique...no reply yet. I was hoping that kia would be both of our dogs but she is just slakk's. she doesn't want anything to do with me. o well it was his present...grandma is getting a cat tomorrow. cedar has yet to come back to me. I dought she will. so I have been watching TV alone. the neighbors called about there fence again so after dinner (a big lunch. slakk took kia out side and him and grandma went to take a look at the fence while I cleaned up and put stuff away. slakk hasn't been home much if he is he is playing with kia...im not jealous I just wish I could play to but I know she wont play with me. o well not all pets are meant for every one right...wall all for now byes.
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November 20, 2003
Yesterday was ok...I wasn't in a good mood I felt like crying every so often. There was just so much stuff going threw my head. last night Slakk and I talked for a while he let me cry and cry as long as I needed to. So today I feel much better... for the time being. Well today turned out great. it snowed and is still snowing a 3 inches. we got pizza for dinner and i'm wearing warm nice3 cloths. but that's about it for to day. its bed time now. good night all loves to you.
November 23, 2003
Well today slakk starts his first day of work at the mall I hope it goes well. right now I'm sitting here alone with the puppy dog looking at my sandwich. I feel kinda lonely no one to do stuff with but its ok. YAY I finally talked to cali today I was so happy
December 7, 2003
wow long time no write not much going on really. I'm becoming a cook. yay. j has been having fun at work. I'm thinking of getting a job not quit sure yet on that yet though. the 9th is his birthday I got him some cool stuff ill tell you about that on Sunday...I don't wanna give away the secret. I'm not that blond. I think the best thing I have cooked so far is Slakks French toast he loved it.
Today was also slakks last day of school yay. so we are free...well almost he still has work. but he at least no school. hehehe. I'm hoping to go and visit eveyr one for Christmas...well after the 2nd of January. I wanna be here for slakk's family Christmas we haven't done that yet. Tonight we had taco's yummy I maid then well the meat and i prepared every thing...it was a hit it was like they haven't had taco's before...so weird...anyway i got a letter from my mom in the mail and it had my birth-certificate so I was finally able to get my ID...yay I'm 18...MOVIES....and well STORES heheh. ya. I bet some of you really wanted to hear that. lol. I was watching NASCAR today, it was previewing new merchandise....no 38 stuff. for those who don't know...38 is Elliot Sadler....M&MS...they rock. well time to fly byes loves you.
May 25, 2005
Hello everyone wow long time no chat huh, well as you can guess a lot has happened since last wrote. the most important *drum roll* me and Justin are engaged. O god I'm so happy. He proposed on February 12 when we stayed at a hotel for then night, thank you Jim and Shila. They got us a free night and dinner at a nice hotel with a indoor swimming pool and hot tub. hell ya of course I used it what a dumb Q..lol. I also have a job sucks big time and I might get fired soon but at least I have the experience. I'm working at a hotel here in Spokane. been there for a few months not long...just long enough to make some enemies. But the head house keeper is awesome we are good friends I think. o I also turned 20 in April one more year and I can drink. yippee hehe. well lately when I get time off of work and I'm not sleeping I'm playing Guild wars where Slakk has a character named Darius Tussand, and i am Mirage Tussand, we also have a few none primary char's but I don't like to play them to much. For those that don't know the game its a adventure game where you get your choice of professions...lets see if I can remember all 6.... Mesmer (my main profession), Ranger (my second, o you get to have 2 professions on your char) Monk, Necromancer, warrior, and Elementalist. It is a pretty awesome game (which slakk will love to hear) and I recommend it to anyone. Its a free online game and you can play as much or as little as you want. I have made some friends online...Colmn, Nesa, Feeral just to name a few. And they are all over the U.S., east and west coast...no one form Spokane yet I'm still hoping hehe. well ya'll I'm going to play some guild wars talk to ya later
July 17,2005
Not much going on. still looking for a job. The 4th was as eventful as ever. watching movies and hiding under my blanket. I have been working on a website for our Guild. So far I think its ok, but some of my professional friends want to work on it. so i said ok. ...though truthfully I was kind of hurt that it wasn't good enough. but hey im a newbie when it comes to this stuff. maybe one day ill make something they like. but it aint going to be this site. no way. lol this site is going to be fun. and so unprofessional, just like me. and mishmash of stuff crammed together. yesterday the new Harry potter book came out. iv only read the first 4 pages. been trying to get the website fixed. i better get back to work. talk to ya later.
July 22, 2005
god dang this website is being a pain. well its more like geocities. all is up loaded but no pics work...oy its annoying but ill get it I promise. haven't done much today. cleaned is about it. tomorrow we are having party. kind of boring really mostly grandmas/Justin's family. Finished Harry potter. yesterday. wasn't as good as the first 5 but they next one will rock. I aint saying why. that's all for now. byes
January 19, 2009
It has been a very very long time since iv updated this. Got so busy for work i forgot my own passwords. But once i get front page back on my computer ill finish making the bio and pics. maybe put up some more poems think i have one or two more to add. May have to wait fora bit. I'm fighting a cold right now so i cant remember to much HTML to get to much work down. but i remembered how to do the journal! I'm going to head to bed so i can get over this blasted cold before i blows what little brains i have wright out of my head. talk to you all soon!!