Dear Kindred Cyber Surfers,
Alas, it has been a long while since I updated Under Blue. Its seems like life caught up with me real time. Much work to do, much healing time needed, times spent with new friends, time spent with my children, heading towards a new era in my life.
Empty Nest Syndrome.. thats the most often heard term. I have often watched Robins in the Spring..flying back to check their abandoned empty nests, and wondered..what are they feeling? Empty Nest Syndrome... an affliction no antibiotic or miracle drug will cure.
Maybe a margarita or two, or maybe a pitcher full, may take the edge off. The past 25 years of my life, have been solely devoted to my sons. Every second of the day, every thought, whirled around them. Now I find myself feeling strangely at a loss, feeling sorta abandoned, set aside. Shocked... that.. I am not the Sun in their universe anymore..Oh they love old Mom, but.. their eyes are set on their futures, they have the world by the tail.. and are ready to run with it. Thats what parents prepare their children for, to be ready for the world, to go out and explore, make a way for themselves, leave their mark on the world. I am left here, wondering, what great thing did I do.. what mark did I leave?
My mark..on the world.. is my children, they are the quilt I never finished, the tapestry filled with all our adventures together, brightly colored with our love for each other.
I am 44 years young. I could easily have another 40 years to go. What should I do? Where should I go? What adventure may be waiting for Me?
Me...just me.
Its my turn to grab the world by the tail.. and run with it. Free.. to run...to explore...to create.. to change.
That old Empty Nest.. won't always be empty.. children return for visits, bringing their families. I wonder if old Mom will be home.. or will she be on a journey.. running with the world.. by the tail.. *S*
Until next time...forever true,
Blue
1/17/04
