I've just written the most shameful e-mail. Did I exaggerate the situation? I guess I was really upset yesterday, but I feel much better now. Stop obsessing with the issue. Ching sent me e-mails telling me to be strong and dun be too upset about the whole situation. Guess she's right, maybe in few years time I dun want him anymore. The point is, there's nothing I can do right now, that's true. So just get over it, and enjoy the last three days of my journey! =)

9/8/01．Prague．1:02pm

Just said goodbye to the Swedish.

Yesterday I kept thinking about him I dun have mood for anything, so bought instant soup and bread from supermarket for dinner. Started cooking at around 1730 coz I have nothing to do. Saw a girl at the pantry, we smiled at each other just to be polite, I was completely exhausted and so did she I guess. Afterwards I saw her on the roof, so we started chatting. She's Lisa , she's 18 year-old and she's Swedish. It is the first time she travels around Europe. I told her my feet hurt so I came back early (obviously not the truth), and she showed me hers -- o my god! Poor thing, there're wounds and blisters on both of her feet, it was terrible! She told me how did it happen -- her first destination was Paris, they (she and her friend) arrived the Northern train station in the afternoon, they were poor, they didn't have much time to do a lot, and had to catch a train in the early morning, so they walked from the Northern train station to Eiffel Tower then walked back, then slept at the train station at night. That's how she got it. I thought I look poor, but she was much poorer. And since one of her bags was stolen at the train station, now she only had a bikini top, a pair of jeans, a sweater, some (but not many) underwear,  which are basically everything she's wearing now, and everyday. I like this girl not only does she have interesting stories, it was becoz she look very attractive, and young, and...we just clicked. Just as we were talking louder and laughing hilariously, the sun set, more people came to the roof, including a young couple. They sat at our table and that girl started to talk with Lisa in Swedish. So it turned out that they are all Swedish.  Linnea and Kristofer (18 & 19 year-old) are music lover, this is the third time they came to Prague, before this they went to the Love Parade at Berlin coz they love dancing. The three of them start chatting very happily in Swedish and I was being left out. Lisa and I planned to go out for a drink, ended up the four of us going out together. It was nice because they know Prague very well, so they know where to go and what is cheaper. We had a good time without getting drunk. =)

Linnea talked a lot, sometimes too much. Everytime she starts talking Kristofer stands behind her and smiles (always wonder if he's laughing at her =P). I like Kristofer, he's kinda cool but nice and gentle. Like he doesn't like talking, but when he noticed that I was left out or being bored he would talk to me. He's a bit shy (and good looking, umm),  he told me he misses home too, he's sweet. Linnea is very out-spoken, actually I like her too, of course not as much as I like Lisa. She's a real sweetheart, I dunno why I just like her. And she speaks English very well, becoz she's studied in the State. I gave her the lighter I bought on my way from Hamburg to Prague, I think she's the right person to have that baby pink lighter. And now she's going to Hamburg (I wanna go with her too >.<), what a coincidence.

Since all of them are leaving tonite, so we had dinner together. '4 o'clock at that stupid clock' ( *the Astronomical Clock in Prague) that's our plan. The couple took us to a really cool vegetarian restaurant (which is also a night club and disco in the basement, wow). We had the most wonderful time. As it got late, none of us wanna leave. But they were leaving. We walked Lisa to the platform, I almost cried. Coz they cheered me up, they brought me back on the road, and reminded me how wonderful it is to travel. If I didn't meet them, I'll probably be still very upset and thinking bout him day n night. It's always like this --- meeting the best people at the last minute of your / their stay. Linnea insisted that I should visit them in Sweden. They are so sweet!!!!!

So here I am, totally alone, walking on Charles Bridge, looking at the most beautiful night view in Europe with no one to share. Hate to walk alone into that really dark alley back to the hostel, not to mention that crazy reception! >o< Then I came back my room and met those Australians who I've met yesterday, so they were going to Kutna Hora on Saturday, and they asked me to go with them! Great! I'm not alone again! And I'm moving to a private room tomorrow, so I can have some personal space and dun have to worry that I will wake up anybody. Great! Glad to know that my journey is gonna finished beautifully. I stop thinking bout him and meet new people! Thank God, I know you've been taking care of me and wouldn't give up on me. =)

9/8/01．last night @ Hostel Sokol^^"