I Wanna Be With You
Midnight Panther
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I've never done a songfic. So here goes. *embarrassed* I'll need to go look for a song first.... ^^

okay... this is the first song I came upon that wasn't *too* mushy for what I want to write about. 3 guesses on what that's gonna be.

oh. you don't know? *sigh* Well then, read on...



the song is:
I Wanna Be With You
by: Mandy Moore

"I try but I can't seem to get myself
To think of anything but you"

Those eyes of his. So cold, like standing in a blizzard, yet they can be so warm when he opens up. Not much, but for him... it's enough. Enough to see that he cares.


"Your breath on my face
Your warm gentle kiss,
I taste the truth"


But can he love? He didn't love Donna. But those kids; did he love them? I don't know. But when he looks at me, I can almost lie to myself.


"I taste the truth"


The tears begin to collect but I don't let them fall. My hands twine around his, my eyes turn away from his gaze. Gentle kisses fall upon my neck and shoulders. He is so strong, so warm, so human.

"We know what I came here for
So I won`t ask for more"


We fall to the bed.


"I wanna be with you
If only for a night
To be the one who's in your arms
Who holds you tight"


The kisses are frenzied.


"I wanna be with you
There's nothing more to say
There's nothing else I want more than to feel this way
I wanna be with you"


I try not to think of the hurt I'll feel later. It'll be worth this night, and the others. Maybe.

"So I`ll hold you tonight
Like I would if you were mine"


I know I'm pretending, building up this delusion. But what else can I do? I can't leave him. No, I won't leave him.


"To hold forever more"


I lay beside him, one arm draped over his feverish, sweaty chest. I can feel the rhythm of his heart beating, and the comforting rise and fall of his chest.


"And I`ll savor each touch that I wanted
So much to feel before (To feel before)
How beautiful it is
Just to be like this"


His hand reaches for my face. He cradles my face in his hand, thumb on my cheek, tracing tiny little circles on the soft skin.


"I wanna be with you
If only for a night
To be the one who's in your arms
Who holds you tight
I wanna be with you
There's nothing more to say
There's nothing else I want more than to feel this way
I wanna be with you"


I close me eyes, burying my face into his warm chest. The tears start their threats once again.


"Oh baby
I can`t fight this feeling anymore
It drives me crazy when I try to"


I turn so those venomous tears drip to the sheets.


"So call my name
Take my hand
Make my wish
Baby, your command?"


I hate that he's making me feel so weak. It's not his fault. I hate myself for getting myself stuck in this. But I've made up my mind.


"Yeah
I wanna be with you
There's nothing more to say
There's nothing else I want more than to feel this way"


I sniffle silently, but he won't wake up. He never does. I sit up, and look down on his angelic features. I sit there for a while, thinking.


"I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you
Wanna be with you"


I get dressed slowly, trying not to wake him up. In the mirror my eyes are dark and skin luminous. All sign of crying is gone now.


"I wanna be
I wanna be with you
(I wanna be)
(I wanna be)
(I wanna be with you) Yeah
I wanna be
I wanna be with you, yeah
I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you"


Turning once again to my forbidden lover, I brush the feathery locks of hair from his face. I give him a small kiss on the lips, breathing in his scent one more time. I turn away reluctantly, whispering, "I love you Edward, when will you love me?"