peace of mind
or a piece of yours
steal my breath
with your broken soul
lock yourself
lose the keys
nobody can reach to deep
only the surface, please
your glassy eyes
play your benedict
put on a free show
to your disguised insides
play your trends
make believe and pretend
I think what you need
is just a real friend.
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pride is the poison
that singes the soul
living in fear of your tyrany
king of the castle
castle of germs
but you stand strong
your will
beating like a drum
chest pains and migraines
the result of your toliest dynasty
wave your plunger
and command your forces
banish me from your hell
and glare with grunge
maybe than there will be hope.
a hose
from the house
to your mouth
fill your throat
with ignorance
bite your tongue
parents showed
you right
the right way to be
hate the world
hate the difference
between you and me
get your hose
don't lose it
its all you got.
tears for you
sweet sadness
beat my chest
and I cry outloud
and you wonder
why.
games sweetheart
are they fun
follow the leader
and simon says
I'll play along
cause I can't stand
If you're gone.
beat by your misconceptions
your lies fill the musty air
justify your senses
so you can feel prepared
open your mouth to speak
blinded, I'll never really see
all the emotion you feel
is lost before it reaches me
your stone cold words
brush past my ears
easier to spit anger
if being sad is all you fear.
a fire outside
brought this blanket to my eyes
sparks and flames
dance.
destruct.
feel nothing again.
The prescription worked.
no pain to recall.
When I burned alive.
limb by broken limb
use silk lined words
to numb my flaming skin
if you make me smile
I'd let you hurt me a while.
thinking without my mind
always been so smart
but my real sense
couldn't never get a start
wasted on arguing
with a one-sided wall
that somehow finds
still a way to stand.
bricks wouldn't'-
make it fall.
create it
from your
brass strings
pain you could never feel
you could
only dream
a soul
handed down
a used sloppy passion
from someone
unknown
make it cry
so you can pretend
you can feel
its a lifeless lie
few would very well see
don't you worry
you don't fool me
taught to oppress
get your kicks
from those below
fill your heads
with a pound of lead
desks filled with bodies
minds lost above
we beat each other
without a shove
without seeing
the tears she bled
fairies lost their dust
to the wishes you made
you should have learned by now
never believe in change.
broken inside out
doors left unhinged
opened from the backside
less than unfortunate
without a second warning
I think if I said goodbye
there'd be more pain
in my empty life
so mistaken.
I feel like breaking
cracking
better off left insane
than
who
would be left to blame
a lover
left on the side of the road
waved her hand
"I gave him everything...
he took my shame..."
she screamed
a car pulled over
a suited man
rolled down his window
from his eyes
he saw a whore
a giver, of her heart and soul
she pleaded with him
"sir, a ride?"
her eyes were wide
without a second glace
she had lost her chance
only fools, give it all
wheels spun
to her face
and she sat alone.
overcoming
like a soft sheet
of fresh pressed linen
it covers me
with fake lace trim
its like an addiction
day in and day out
to see the world
from under
my black linen
my eyes still see
all my functions remain
inside its raining
i find it quite draining
when you only live
not to die.
fear to grow impartial
a need to be sedated
a world full of pain
of feelings I always hated.
sham of you
play your role
do what your told
no opinions
no mind of your own
follow in line
don't step out
just be kind
your words
don't matter
and if you act up
you're life will shatter
mock those folks
if she takes a puff
you better smoke
cuase your friends
they don't need you
they'll drop you fast
if you become yourself
you'll be out on your ass.
poised fingers glide
with skill over the
sliced wooden frets
what I wouldn't give
to be played so well
the strings ache
against the wooden box
and scream the name
fill your empty soul
with the breathe
it makes you feel
it could break your
heart.
beneficial
is the reaction
you receive
from my sorrow
happy now
you coward
you made my tears
fall faster
if I could cry
if my ducts weren't taped
ther'd by a river at your feet.
I never could get over you
See the sad part was we never were.
but you were everything I wanted.
You were cool without the trends.
You were a kind of mind without end.
we all change they say.
and you couldn't wait.
till your number came up
but you never gave me up.
and I held on...to what I thought was still inside
but now I know, it was all a lie.
I wonder why we are the way we are.
It all works out somehow.
I don't know how I know, but it does.
Every punishment gets its final reward.
And ever bad dead gets its final error.
Somewhere, Somehow, Its all equated.
No, its not fair.
I think I lost myself for a while there.
Tossed myself out ever window so I could land face down near your feet.
But, as somebody once said, you're no longer my priority, when I'm just an option.
Don't act so hurt, when suddenly, I can't help but hate.
I can't be your toy today.
i hope you got your fill of amusement for awhile.
You'd rather bury your face in your black and white world. than give in.
to what seems to be real.
battered and beaten
from the inside
with all the dreams
just brushed to the side
crushed and destroyed
I no longer feel
tell me how can I tell
when something is real
ignored and numb
to all the pain
I can't remember
the late time I felt shame
controlled and conquered
I let you lead the way
I always felt that you
made everything okay
manipulated and lost
left alone with all my cries
I looked at you for an answer
there was hate in your eyes
confused and hurt
you took me by suprise
I was just to caught up
in your deceptive lies
devastated but sure
you'll be back on your knees
but there will be nothing for you
ever left in me.
break the square
the jagged edge
that cuts my throat
and leaves me dead
akward mutation
and ugly dolls
once upon a time
the world will fall
crash your engine
into my hands
I'll keep you safe
wherever it lands.
left alone
I found myself
without the help
of my friends
they never cared
just as long as I was there
people seem merely
selfish beings
they care
because it makes them feel good
they ask how are you
because they like to pretend
trying to find somebody
who doesn't feel
for just themselves
will be the moment
that I will trust.
Bountiful
your drama spreads
sleep around
maybe you can breed
overemotional, sensitive types
world order
starts and begins
with your sheets
teenage syndrome
falling in love
ranks with water
even if it only
teaches you to hate.
not much of me left to feel
blown out
somethings just dont feel real
numb to my stomach
its you who will always be
crushed nerves
everything I hurt to be
broken hearted
maybe theres something else inside your eyes
washed away
something that would end the rise.
a cry fills your empty soul
but my current numbness
takes the real toll
ambition, chewed to pieces
black eyes stole my life
or i gave it up, either way
I won't ever be right.
and blame the world
for their tragedy
they all think
somebody has jipped them
they find excuses and reasons
to hurt one another
to play a little game
and I boil...it boiles
not for myself.
but for others
cuase I lost control of my own
a long time ago.
Death to you
I'll kill you now
Bullet to your soul
a cross-stiched soul
dreamed from my thought
blown away
Imaginary
I create
The perfect one
Now I find
You I distaste
You are everything
I learned to hate.
The living dead
What it must feel like
When now you can only
live outside my head.
The distance
behind your eyes
is everything
I feel inside
they open
with tears and fall
asleep so late
that I can't help
but promise
to fall in love myself
not to much to ask
Confusion
overwhelms
the incoherent
But I have fallen
for your desperate
eyes.