Feeling much better today. The day's been pretty quiet. The weather was great today, wanted to go out for a walk though gotta stay at home to study a little harder, and rest a little more.
I'm wondering today if I'm angry with him. In fact, I am!! But why? I have no idea. I can't say I'm very angry but somehow I feel the anger myself. Inside I'm screaming, "I hate it! I hate it! I hate it!!" but I'm so helpless when he appears. Sigh...
A friend was talking about her relationship. Her guy's been stringing her along, and then the guy suddenly said that he didn't need her anymore. We were saying one time, actually many men are less determined than women in relationship. It's probably true.
Dad always gives enlightening words. He said, not many people know what they exactly want and what they are doing. They may give very mixed signals to make situation confusing. He also said, sometimes people are not determined due to the background they have, the experiences they've gone through, the problems in their head. Dad said, "If it's meant to be, it will be. Just do your best, you work will be seen and he will understand." Well...will he? I'm glad that dad is always here to give me a clear vision. Last time had been a total failure, but dad didn't blame me at all despite I've spent much money, I've made him and mom worried and I've made the wrong choice. He also bore a lot of pressure from the relatives for me. Still, he respected my choice all the time. I've always been sorry, no matter what I do I cannot repay him. Gianne always says my dad is the only good man in this world. There is no doubt that dad's the best, but is there really no second best? I wonder if I have to accept the brutal truth. Would he be the second best? He would, I've always believed that he would...
"Love is patient and kind"
"Love never gives up; and it's faith, hope and patience never fail"