HI: I'M GREG AND I'M AN ALCOHOLIC.

I found that when I was drinking that I got injured often. Now that I've stopped drinking I rarely get injured. Initially, I decided to only drink at home where it was safe, but it became obvious that even at home my liver was still in danger. Near the end of my drinking the hangovers would last for a couple of days. My body was trying to get my attention by applying pain. "It's natures way of telling you something's wrong". The pleasure of the alcohol's chemical effect on my brain lasted only a few hours, but the pain lasted for days. It seemed absurd to me that I actually paid money to feel bad. The simple solution to my problem was to simply stop drinking. In order to survive it is required that I not drink alcohol. It is an outside issue but, I feel that I have explored inner space completely thru the use of psychedelic chemicals. All knowledge that is possible to be learned by walking thru the doors of perception has already been learned. Altered states of consciousness have become boring and repetitive. I cannot make any more progress on my spiritual journey thru chemicals (except coffee). I did some research on my ability to play chess under the influence of different drugs and found out that coffee improved my game. I played against a computer and won more often when I had taken caffeine. Even the new ones that I have not tried seem pointless FOR ME. (prozac, zoloft) My current emphasis is on creating artwork, lyrics, poetry, prose, music and websites. I am grateful to be alive and well. I have been extremely near to death three times. I choose to survive.