033003I am the world's biggest update lazy-ass. I know many people visit this site and I feel I am shafting my loyal readers with the lack of new content. I know, I know. Song lyrics can only get me by for so long. If you think I need to get off my sorry butt and post more updates, please e-mail me harassing comments. I need some motivation. Also, the tothethird network is going down soon, so if you know of a new place I can set up shop, please let me know. 031903Do you ever think about me?
It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours
Do you ever ask about me?
It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours
It's hard enough just passing the time
It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours
- Brian McKnight 030903I've heard that it takes half the amount of time you were with someone to get over them. By that calculation, I should be over Cory by October. However, there are times I trick myself into thinking I'm completely over him right now. There's a guy in my night class that I've taken a liking to. We sit by each other in the lecture hall and engage in rapid-fire flirting. The more I find out about him, the more I like him. However, he has a girlfriend. Figures. But when I stop and think about it, I'm not sure if I like him. I can't tell if I really do or if I'm trying so hard to get over Cory that I'm forcing myself into thinking he's incredibly wonderful. Cory moved on. He has a new girlfriend. I honestly had convinced myself that things might be rocky for a while, but, eventually, we would get back together. To find out he had moved on, especially so soon after our break-up, sucked. I try not to think about it, but then I'll glance at his profile and unexpectedly come across the word "girlfriend." I stop and stare at it, thinking, "I put in 2 � years, that's my title, how dare you call yourself that." I know it shouldn't hurt me. I'm over him, right? Not even close, which is why it keeps coming back to haunt me. Quite frankly, I don't know what to do next. I thought I found someone I could possibly date, but he's currently off-the-market. Last year, when I had a boyfriend, I had guys asking me out left and right. Now, single me can't even get a second glance from the male species. When you get so deep into a relationship, you don't think things will ever change. However, I got caught up in a world that was suddenly yanked out from under me. Now I'm standing here, looking in both directions, but unable to make my feet move. It's really hard for me to imagine kissing someone else, hearing a different voice call me "baby," having to introduce a new person to all of my friends. I distinctly remember one of the last times I saw Cory. We were sitting at his kitchen counter and I was trying to explain how hard it was for me to let him go. I was telling him to say something, anything, to shake me out of this rut and make me move on. He just sat there, staring back, not saying a word. He's never had the courage to say it to my face. That's something I've always wished he could have done. 030603I'll become what you became to me. - Goo Goo Dolls
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