Mon, 28 Apr 2003 10:33:58
My husband and I finally wed on December 1, 2001. We already had 2 beautiful children and still wanted 2 more. So we began trying again in January 2002.
We got pregnant right away and we were so excited. At about 10 weeks, (the end of March 2002) I started having some spotting. I was devastated. I went to the doctor and they sent me for an ultrasound to confirm a miscarriage.
At the ultrasound I was told that they couldn't see a baby and maybe my dates were off, so I would have to come back in two weeks. So for two weeks I went on with my life. The bleeding had stopped and I hoped that maybe everything was fine.
At the second ultrasound they didn't tell me anything. They said my doctor would call me with the results. Unfortunately that was a Friday so I would have to wait until Monday. I stayed home from work on Monday and I got the call at about 10 am.
When my doctor phoned she said that there was no baby and it looked like a possible molar pregnancy. She told me a specialist would call and set up an appointment for a D&C.
As soon as I got off the phone I started to cry. I didn't understand how this could happen. I was perfectly healthy. When I called my friends and family no one knew what a molar pregnancy was. So my husband and I went onto the internet and looked it up.
I was so surprised. How could this be happening to me? I didn't fit any of the risk factors. I had two healthy pregnancies and two healthy children. I was only 23 and I live in Canada. So I believed that the D&C would show it was a regular miscarriage.
While I was home for the 3 days leading up to the surgery we discovered our 2 1/2 year old son had type 1 diabetes. So the day I went in for my surgery my husband was at children's hospital with my son while I went through this alone.
I remember being so scared and upset. The doctor had explained all the complications of a molar pregnancy but I still didn't believe that was what it was.
The surgery went fine and about 2 weeks later I got the call. It was molar. I have never been so terrified in my life. I fell into a depression for about 6 months. I was dealing with my son's diabetes and the loss of the babies. We were told it was a partial molar and two sperm had penetrated the egg, but something went wrong.
On my due date I stayed home from work. I was having a terrible problem with my blood pressure and migraines because of my level of stress. After Christmas this year things started to get better. The end was in sight.
Until I missed my last period a couple of weeks ago. I called the specialist and she said not to worry. I was at the end of my year and since I had gone off my pill I was probably pregnant. Everything was going to be fine. We were so happy, I couldn't wait to tell anyone but decided to wait just in case.
Well I am not sure yet, but I think my fears are coming true. Last Friday, April 25, 2003, I began to spot again. I should be about 6 weeks pregnant. I went to the hospital on Saturday and the doctor checked me out and said it wasn't an obvious miscarriage as I have no cramping and I am not really bleeding. He contacted my specialist and she suggested an ultrasound.
The bleeding has stopped and I am going for my ultrasound today. I am hoping the best but fearing the worst. I will keep you posted on what happens but I thought reading this might help someone else going through this. Everything happens for a reason right?
Mon, 28 Apr 2003 18:15:50
Unfortunalty I have received bad news. I am going through another molar pregnancy. I will be having another D&C this Thursday and to be honest I don't know how to begin to handle this. I don't mind at all if you publish this on the website. I hope it would help someone else going through this. Thanks for your support, I am open to anyone wishing to contact me with any idea on how to cope. Or even just someone who knows what it is like to go through this.
An Update
Fri, 23 May 2003
I went for my D&C on May 1, 2003. I had more bleeding before the surgery and my doctor was second guessing the report from the radioligist about it appearing to be another molar pregnancy. So she checked my HCG levels for 3 days and the day of the D&C they were 0. She was happy to report to me last Friday May 16, 2003 that the results from the tissue said it was a normal miscarriage. Not that this is good news to us, I really love being a mother and can not wait to have more but it was a relief none the less. We have been given the green light to have "as many babies as we like". Of course there is still a risk as you know but I feel we may be fine now.
