l.r.
V1:
you are my
favorite color
so don?t change
to another
and all of your
angel power
is turning me
into a coward
who is gonna
start to choke
cuz your halo
has me by the throat
Bridge 1:
i can see it
it?s over there
right above you
in the air
Ch 1:
hey there hello
little blue halo
hey there hello
little blue halo
V2:
now it?s time
to say goodbye
to my halo
floating so high
cuz it doesn?t
matter what i say
i can?t keep you
from moving away
but i?ll still
see your light
in my dreams
late at night
Bridge 2:
now i can?t see
where you are
cuz you?re somewhere else
way too far
Ch 2:
goodbye don?t go
little blue halo
i?ll miss you so
little blue halo
~..............................................................................................~
Leaving
2-23-01
L.R.
V1:
You want me
To just be
The one who
Is near you
And be around
When you're down
Under the weather
Making you better
So I see now
That you're like the rest
Every girl has a plan
And a test
You keep asking questions
To see what I say
Yes no maybe forget it my answers
They don't matter at all anyway
Cuz later on down the
Road you'll change
Become like the others
Leaving me feeling strange
CH:
Your leaving
Me feeling
So strange
To rearrange
This broken heart
Makin' it start
All over again
Without a friend
As good as you
To help me through
All of this pain
You brought me again
V2:
So do you
Know what's true
In this place
Around my face
That's makin' me
Turn it slowly
Away from you
Cuz you do
Things to me
That you can't see
How much of this
Shit can I take
And how many more
Times will you break
This piece of shit
Useless motherfucking heart
That is waiting
For the start
Of the upcoming day
When you gladly grin
As you show me
The cold shoulder again
END:
You threw
Pain again
At me
At me
You threw
pain again
at me
at me
at me
at me
~..............................................................................................~
so lonely
l.r.
V1:
i don?t know
what to do
now that i
don?t have you
i just sit
and watch the stars
and the lights
of passing cars
CH:
this life that i live
without you
is tearin me up
and breakin me down
so i fall
straight down
right down
to the ground
i know i?m
all alone now
all alone now
all alone now
all alone now
so lonely
V2:
everything i wanted
is now gone
guess i waited
way too long
cuz now i want
to have you
but that?s over
it?s all through
V3:
my life is
missing something
and i know
that it?s true
cuz each day
all i want
is to live
life with you
~..............................................................................................~
This Missing You
7-4-01
L.R.
V1:
You?re far away
Gone out of town
And I?m so lonely
Cuz you?re not around
I lay here alone
Looking out the window
Why you?re not here
I just don?t know
The day you return
Isn?t coming soon enough
This being away from
You is too tough
CH:
I miss seeing you
I miss holding you
I miss kissing you
I hate this missing you
V2:
When we said goodbye
I felt so empty
When are you coming
Back home to me
Why do I dream
Of you at night
Maybe you?re just becoming
A special nightlight
That is always there
Just helping me through
All of these nightmares
About me missin you
Where I?m missin you
~..............................................................................................~
Out of my league
1-29-01
l.r.
today the sun
had begun
brightening the place
and your face
letting me see
your beauty
slowly take control
of my soul
that's in me
and then suddenly
to my surprise
i saw your eyes
glowing bright
with heavenly light
making me hide
these feelings inside
and i'm still not sure
exactly why you're
leaving me in intrigue
cuz you're out of my league
~..............................................................................................~
-if I tried-
9-07-00
l.r.
Well okay people here I go again
Sitting down with my notebook and my pen
What is it this time why am I here
Just tryin to make things a little more clear
There's this beautiful girl stuck in this head of mine
And she's runnin around up there now all of the time
Whenever our paths cross and meet
I wanna get closer but I get cold feet
Cuz I think of the girls before tellin lie after lie
Then I ask myself why even try
But maybe hopefully she's different and not like the rest
Of everyone I know I believe her personality is the best
I heard she's with someone that's good good for her
But I just can't help but sit here and think and ponder
Are they a couple are they together
Or are they just dating and seeing each other
Every once in a while I come up with questions somehow
Is she at school work I wonder what she's doin' now
Everytime I see her I like wanna hug her
And always be nice and never hurt her
A face so soft that's as smooth as velvet
And a smile so priceless I can't describe it
And there's light in her eyes that so brightly glows
That heaven only rests when they are closed
The most elegant soothing heavenly harp stops to a squeak
So you can hear the beauty in her voice when she goes to speak
So go ahead give her a harp and two wings
And not just one but two bright halo rings
I still would look helplessly at her in awe
Her angelic features I already saw
Don't look at her eyes look through and behind
Do you see her now so sweet and kind
In and out up and down side to side she's flawless
If my jaw drops anymore I'm gonna be jawless
I just can't describe the feelings she causes in me
Kinda like that feeling you get from a disney movie
But unlike a movie it doesn't take two hours or even a while
All it takes is a look a glance a giggle a smile
And I think is there any real reason any at all
For me to pick up the phone and giver her a call
Can I come up with an excuse that sounds good
So the purpose of me calling would be understood
I can't help but wonder what she would do
If I just called her up to say I'm really starting to like you
Cuz she's my last thought before I go to bed
So that she'll be with me in my head
Then I wake up tossing wanted to scream
Cuz I can't take a picture of her in a dream
So what should I do
Do you know
Should I open up
And then show
Her how I feel
Deep down inside
And would I be successful
If I tried
~..............................................................................................~
Brick pitcher
2-10-01
L.R.
look at you
always tryin to
play your ticks
by throwin bricks
till they all
form a wall
that separates you
from having to
be with me
in this insanity
but you'll fall
and then call
me to pretend
some love again
that isn't true
getting me to
move them some
to again become
the only one
you call hun
and there's millions
thousands of billions
stars up high
in the sky
silently askin why
they have to
shine for you
but i say
there's no way
that my brain
could ever explain
that it lies
in the eyes
of this girl
in my world
~..............................................................................................~
A Life With You
L.R.
V1:
the stars in the sky
are tellin me something
i see that without you
my life is nothing
so please say you'll stay
forever here with me
but don't let me extinguish
who you wanna be
V2:
i never knew what
my pathetic life was for
but that was then
yes that was all before
you took my hand
and opened up my eyes
takin me to a place
where the sun always shines
CH:
cuz i wanna life
cuz i wanna live
cuz i needa life
cuz i needa live
a life with you
cuz all i do
i picture me living
a life with you
V3:
my life used to be
a hopeless sea of misery
then you came along
and now all that's gone
cuz you stepped into
a life that needs you
so please just say
that you'll always stay
~..............................................................................................~
Untitled
2-10-01
l.r.
V1:
This is my song
That I'm writing you
To simply thank you
For everything you do
In my brain
I can't explain
Just how you
Can be true
CH:
My heart beats
And then repeats
Beating for you
Cuz I love you
V2:
Now laying here alone
I reminisce of you
And all the things
We love to do
I just love
All the stuff
That I do
Everyday with you
V3:
Deep in my head
There lies a noise
That keeps away sleep
It is your voice
And I hear
It so clear
It's tellin me
That I'm lonely
END:
Can't you see
That in me
Sits a heart
Ready to start
Letting in more
Pieces of your
Feelings and thoughts
Needs and wants
~..............................................................................................~
Empty
1-29-01
l.r.
I just need
To just bleed
Out this lust
On the dust
That's all around
The dirty ground
And then cry
And ask why
You had to
Get right into
My dark heart
And then start
To love me
Makin me be
In love again
With a friend
But you lied
To get inside
To shake it
And break it
Then leave me
So very empty
~..............................................................................................~
Feeling This Nothing
7-4-01
L.R.
V1:
i've been so stupid
i've been so careless
how could i
have let love pass me by
how could i
have let you say goodbye
CH:
feeling this nothing
i'm feeling this nothing
pretending that it's something
just so that i can
be as happy as i am
feeling this nothing
V2:
i've always said okay
to whatever you'd say
but this time
i didn't speak my mind
cuz this time
i let you leave this life of mine
V3:
it's all my fault
i could've stopped you
so i guess
i'm to blame for this mess
and i guess
i shouldn't deserve any less
END:
why didn't i
go out of my way
to just ask
you to stay
i've been so stupid
it's all my fault
i've been so careless
i could've stopped you
by asking you to stay
and saying that i care
now i'm so unhappy
just feeling this nothing
i'm as happy as i am
feeling this nothing
i'm as happy as i am
feeling this nothing
feeling this nothing
i'm as happy as i am
i've been so stupid
it's all my fault
i've been so careless
i could've stopped you
i could've stopped you
i could've stopped you
~..............................................................................................~
for forever
10-22-01
l.r.
V1:
i wrote this
just for you
cuz all i
want to do
� is be happy
deep inside
with you standing
by my side
Ch:
cuz here lately
i?ve been thinking
that we should
be together
and i know
we?ll have fun
starting today
for forever
V2:
i think i?m
in love with you
please say that
you love me too
and that this
will be something
and not just
a meaningless nothing
~..............................................................................................~
Fly Away With Me
2-11-01
L.R.
V1:
So again I
Look up high
At the face
Of deep space
And I saw
In beautiful awe
Orions' bright belt
As I felt
My brain swell
But I fell
At your feet
As you treat
Me like shit
As you spit
As the base
Of my face
CH:
Once again I
I try to fly
But I don't
Because you wont
Never ever
Follow me
You just say no
Then turn and go
Because you must
Only trust
What you can see
So please come fly
Fly away with me
Away with me
V2:
Don't ask why
It is I
Have an attraction
To this diffraction
That's around me
Makin' me see
A lotta' waves
Somehow makin' caves
Only to begin
Slowly entering them
And have gravity
Leave me quickly
Cuz I'm not
Gonna be brought
Down or fall
Down at all
V3:
But all they
Did was say
What are you
Tryin' to do
Get us shot
By getting caught
Trying to escape
From this tape
Holding us down
To the ground
But all I
Do is cry
Tear after tear
Year after year
Then I say
Fine lets stay
END:
Why won't you fly
Away with me
Why won't you fly
Away with me
~..............................................................................................~
Going Slow
L.R.
every single time
i see you
all that i
want to do
is to never
ever look away
anywhere or anytime
of any day
and every time
i touch you
all that i
want to do
is touch you
and your skin
as i become
so glad within
and every time
i hear you
all that i
want to do
is stand still
and gladly listen
to every word
that you mention
and every time
i feel you
all that i
want to do
is hug you
not letting go
while somehow trying
to go slow
i'm just so glad
cuz noow my senses
are in a yard
that is now fenceless
and while writing this
i was somehow faced
with the lack of
explaining sense of taste
so i'll just say
that i somehow know
that you taste like
sun through a rainbow
that's shining on me
so warm and bright
that even my heart
can feel your light
~..............................................................................................~
incompetance
4-1-02
l.r.
�
V1:
this incompetance
that i see
is everywhere
all around me
bringing forth
so much pain
yet no one
can simply explain
how they can
just deeply store
so much love
only to ignore
�
Ch:
little pitter patter
little pitter patter
everything counts
everything matters
little pitter patter
little pitter patter
little ballerinas
little baseball batters
�
V2:
now i see
tears from eyes
bringing forth fake
expressions of surprise
your sick masquerade
causes the soul
to vex itself
into a hole
burning your insides
into vile proportions
only to maybe
feel some emotions
�
End:
who was
watching him
where were
you then
why are
you ignorant
what were
you doing
when will
you fuckin wake up
to the alarm of the
world ringing in your
ears tellin you that
the world here
is a fuckin nightmare
a fuckin nightmare
a fuckin nightmare
judgement day
l.r.
V1:
the things i do
the things i say
and me calling
you everyday
the way i look
the way i dress
will be put
to the test
CH:
all the things
that always say
turn around
and walk away
i am throwin
them away
cuz today
is judgement day
V2:
my stupid laugh
my ugly smile
my empty eyes
my unusual style
i?m layin them all
out here before you
cuz this is umthin
i have to do
V3:
if you need
a little time
to let these things
go through your mind
then just tell me
that you don?t know
and that you need
another day or so
~..............................................................................................~
Let's Play Waste
2-23-01
L.R.
V1:
tag you're it
so whatcha gonna do
start comin' after me
reachin' out tryin to
somehow tag me back
makin' me it again
and then run away
so you can win
i see the games
that you're playin'
and that's why
i'm just stayin'
all the way
over here
so i can run away
when you come near
CH:
i'm respecting myself
by protecting myself
from your eyes
that support lies
from your lips
that strongly grips
onto my brain
cuz once again
i smell you
not being true
so let's play
as i taste
an empty soul
what a waste
i can taste
that you're a waste
waste
waste
V2:
it's just a game
so don't start cryiin'
if you wanna win
then just start tryin'
to run to base
and just stay there
till I fall down
running out of air
when will you
come back around
to play this game
of playing around
no not anymore
cuz today
i am throwin'
you and this game away
END:
so let's play
as I taste
an empty soul
what a waste
let's play waste
i can taste
you're a waste
as I taste
you through waste
i've had enough
of this love
i've had enough
of this love
this isn't love!
this isn't love!
this isn't love!
this isn't love!
~..............................................................................................~
Parental Discretion
8-15-01
L.R.
�
In:
this is me reporting
today in other news
another small helpless child
has been fiercely abused
from the voices of the damned
is it a boy or a girl
it's an innocent human being
being brought into this world
�
i am beggin
you to please
view the world
from your knees
and live as
a child who
lives life here
relying on you
�
V1:
it will never leave
it will always stay
this wretched mere humanity
will never go away
this horrible parental insanity
that is strongly surrounding me
makes my stomach turn
around hate that starts to burn
�
trapping your mind
in this net
i urge you
please don't let
your eyes wander
or stray from
your precious little
daughter or son
�
CH:
parental discretion
is strongly advised
to be in
these little lives
so i'm gonna be heard
just like a fuckin bullet
but these words
i dunno if they will do it
so that's why
i'm gonna yell until i scream
until you realize
that life is not a dream
so wake up
�
V3:
these thoughtless parents
make me sick
your child is not
a useless throwing stick
lost and neglected
abuse and molestation
these aren't phigments
of our imagination
�
they all exist
all right here
why can't they
see that fear
is always existing
every single day
and that it
wont go away
�
V4:
turn your head away from
your kid to me and i'll hit
your child's outta your sight
when will you people get it
through your thick heads
and finally come to realize
to never let your attention
ever stray from their lives
�
i shudder to name
all this sinful shame
for reasons unknown
a child ungrown
has again died
cuz someone tried
to again bring
a human being
into life blindly
while ignoring kindly
that parental discretion
in this nation
has gone away
cuz every day
the news reports
common sense aborts
it's own responsibility
of mere sanity
but all you
want to do
is ask me
why i see
life this way
and i say
�
right over there
the cemetery air
speaks to me
about this atrocity
sounds comin out
tellin me about
precious little souls
thrown into holes
lowered right down
into the ground
while parents stand
with a hand
over their face
due to disgrace
of a mother
and i wonder
do they care
if so where
were they when
that strong engine
pulled that vehicle
over a miracle
that was born
and then torn
up to muddy
pieces of bloody
bone and flesh
what a mess
cuz i know
that there's no
way that this
car can miss
your precious head
leaving you dead
showin my eyes
some horrible advice
that tells me
that parents see
only the good
parts of childhood
before they choose
to hear news
about horrible fear
that's always here
all i'm sayin
is life's playin
you for a
fool who'll say
look at me
while holding imaginary
baskets full of
peace and love
~..............................................................................................~
playground love
4-30-02
l.r.
V1:
it?s so fun
to pretend
that you?re not
a dead end
and that we?ll
grow to something
instead of just
another nothing
but each time
theres no kiss
and i end up
alone like this
Bridge:
cuz it?s
Ch:
time to sit back and enjoy the pain
that i brought to myself again
again
and it?s time to let my heart decide
to hold it all in inside
inside
cuz i?ve had enough
of our playground love
of our playground love
V2:
i know i
shouldn?t look
as you open
up like a book
but it feels
so good at night
while we?re together
until daylight
but then you
you run and hide
and again i feel
so sick inside
~..............................................................................................~
Pretty Please
L.R.
�
V1:
it's time to stop living in the past
the sand is dropping in the hourglass
but i'll use as much as i can
to remember how it felt to hold your hand
�
CH:
a pretty please with cherries on top
wouldn't bring you back
but i just wanted to say
you're the best girl that i've had
�
V2:
i can't help but think of you
it's still my favorite thing to do
but it makes me feel sick inside
cuz now i never see you by my side
�
END:
you're the best girl that i've had
and it gets me mad
cuz i can't bring you back
no i can't bring you back
~..............................................................................................~
We Can?t Be
2-18-00
L.R.
V1:
Me and you we need to part
You have no place for me in your heart
So why do you keep asking me to stay
Don?t look at me turn around look away
CH:
Stop it get away from me
Me and you aren?t meant to be
I?m tired I?ve had enough
Please just go to the one you love
V2:
Do you hear me now the words I say
I want to be with you in the worst way
I can?t you love him I now clearly see
There can never be a you and me
V3:
You have nothing to lose
Go ahead please choose
Him over me
Cuz we can?t be
~..............................................................................................~
You Can't Leaf
2-23-01
L.R.
I just need
To plant this seed
And let it grow
And then show
You an ample
Perfect example
Of it being true
When I say I need you
And I'll never quit
Taking care of it
Give it water to drink
And let it sink
All around
Into the ground
And with my brain
I'll fully explain
Why this plant
Is relevant
To our situation of
Friendship and love
Cuz inside me
There is a tree
That's growing rapidly
Ok look and see
That tree that lies
before your eyes
every single leaf
makes up that tree
that's exactly what
you do for me
and new leaves grow
when you smile my way
hundreds of those grew
just yesterday
after about a month's time
I stop and look At this tree of mine
And the sun is showin
Me that it's growin
Cuz from top to bottom
It is in blossom
Cuz all that time
Made this tree of mine
Get so big
That every twig
Reached up high
Into the sky
And the roots are so deep
That it can't sleep
Through one morning
Without growing
A little deeper
A little steeper
So now that you see
What you do for me
Will you please
Help photosynthesis
To help me
To just be
Continuously growing into
A relationship with you
So please just
Look inside somehow
And think for a moment
And tell me now
Just by looking
At this tree
Do you now see
What I'm feeling in me
You can't leaf
Cuz if you do
I simply won't
~..............................................................................................~
