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13 May 2007

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Molitva

Ni oka da sklopim
Postelja prazna tera san
A �ivot se topi
I nestaje brzo, k'o dlanom o dlan

K'o razum da gubim
Jer stvarnost i ne primećujem
Jo� uvek te ljubim
Jo� uvek ti slepo verujem

K'o luda, ne znam kuda
Ljubavi se nove bojim
A dane, �ive rane
Vi�e ne brojim

Molitva, kao �ar na mojim usnama je
Molitva, mesto reči samo ime tvoje
Nebo zna, kao ja
Koliko puta sam ponovila
To nebo zna, ba� kao ja
Da je ime tvoje moja jedina molitva

Al Bogu ne mogu lagati
Sve dok se molim
A la�em ako ka�em
Da te ne volim

Molitva, kao �ar na mojim usnama je
Molitva, mesto reči samo ime tvoje
Nebo zna, ba� kao ja
Koliko puta sam ponovila
To nebo zna, ba� kao ja
Da je ime tvoje moja molitva

Prayer

I can't close my eyes
The empty bed chases sleep away
And my life is melting away
And it's disappearing quickly, in a split second

It seems I'm losing my mind
As I don't even notice reality
I still love you
I still trust you blindly

Like crazy, I don't know where to go
I'm afraid of a new love
And the days are like open wounds
I don't count them anymore

Prayer, like ardour on my lips
Prayer, just your name, instead of words
Heaven knows, just as I do
How many times I've repeated this
Heaven knows, just as I do
That your name is my only prayer

But I can't lie to God
As long as I pray
And I'd be lying if I said
That I don't love you

Prayer, like ardour on my lips
Prayer, just your name, instead of words
Heaven knows, just as I do
How many times I've repeated this
Heaven knows, just as I do
That your name is my prayer

This week was quite stressful, given that is was a "short" week with a bank holiday on Monday.
I started (or rather: I was pushed into) working on another account (not Microsoft) which is completely messed up due to lack of organisation and TLC. The client is also very difficult and they do not know what they want (we had 6 sets of contradicting instructions to "implement" into the files). So my task to save that particular job was physically impossible, and everything is doomed. At least it is not MY fault, but it was depressing to work on the account anyway, because there was simply nothing I could do to turn things around in the 2 short days I was given.
It's still kind of fun to work on a new account, and the client is based in San Francisco, and I might be sent to visit them soon. That's enough to keep me going.

On Thursday I had my first Reiki session. It was interesting, even though the floor did not move or anything extreme. The practitioner said that my aura was very strong, and that she could feel the tension in my head chakras, which doesn't surprise really, because I am a "head person" anyway and there are lots of worries going through my brain. She also said that the concentration of energy in my throat chakra could mean that I need to talk or communicate a lot in my job, so that was spot on, too. Apparently there are no problems with the energy flow, which is good. One thing that I could feel happening straight away when she put her hands near my head was my funny ear starting to throb again, like something had been loosened. It has not stopped since, but I am hoping that means that some "healing" is going on and that it will eventually get better.

After the session I went to Tesco's to buy some food, and I was thinking that it may NOT be a good idea to buy wine and get pissed straight after the Reiki because surely that would impact on the "energy flow" big time. But of course I did end up putting some alcohol into my basket. Then I had a divine intervention! In that supermarket they have these self- checkouts where you scan all items yourself, and a computer voice tells you what to do, so I decided to try one of those. When it came to the wine, the voice demanded "authorisation", so a lady arrived and asked me for an ID, which of course I didn't have on me. The manager arrived to help, and insisted that regardless of how old I looked he could not sell me alcohol once I had been asked for an ID and couldn't produce one. So the wine stayed behind. Spooky.

I still got very drunk the next day. I had stocked up on alcohol because I thought I might have visitors on Saturday for the Eurovision. So I drank 2 bottles and was quite wasted. Silly. Before I passed out I had a chance to make two vlogs, my first ones. I still don't quite get the idea of those, but it's a fun way to stay in touch with friends. And I find it somehow therapeutic because I am so alienated by my looks and especially my voice, which is hideous, and maybe it will help me to get used to it. But of course it's all a just a huge waste of server space.

On Saturday I did not have a Eurovision party because it clashed with Charles's leaving-do bowling. I did not go to the bowling, but we met earlier on at Heike's and played "Buzz!". I had been lured over with the promise of a round of "Sting Star", but we never got to play that one because we immediately became obsessed with Buzz. It is quite funny how competitive everybody becomes when they have to prove their knowledge of popular music! I won 2 out of 3 games, even though I'm crap - it's all intuition! LOL

In the evening Stephen came round to be the only Eurovision-party guest, which should have suited him just fine given how scared he is of other people and parties in particular.
It was so much fun! So many countries, it was like work! I'm doing all of those languages! (But where was Italy??)

My favourite was Serbia, and I was very excited that they eventually WON! I've never backed a winner! But does that mean that my taste is deteriorating and I have become "too mainstream"?!
I love the winning song, Molitva, I have already downloaded 12 remixes of it in 4 languages and am stalking Marija Serifovic's fansites. LOL It's all in Serbian though, so I don't understand anything anyway.

The UK got no votes from anybody except Ireland and Malta, who don't count because they are basically UK colonies. But didn't I say so?! Who would have wanted to vote for Scooch "flying the Union Jack"? They can't even sing. OK, so it's Eurovision, and it must be "camp", but you also have to take camp seriously.
Ireland were amazingly crap. Where did they find an Irish woman who can't sing?! Embarrassing.

The Ukraine got scarily many points. The performance was not that bad, but I was insulted by the German-Nazi-spoof kind of theme. It wasn't good taste. Bauhaus can do it, because they are German. Others mustn't.
Turkey was a huge pile of crapola but got into the Top 5 as well.

I am upset about how people are saying that the whole contest has been spoilt because it's "overrun" by the Eastern European countries. Well, there are simply more of them! Why would everything be UK, France and Germany?! They are the majority, so fair enough, and being new to it, they probably put more effort into it, too. I'm very happy that my new "favourite countries" are becoming more visible in the European community. Bulgaria were quite good, too, and even Georgia weren't hideous.

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