choking on cardboard
i searched and found new sex
but with a close friend
through my eyes he was my treatment
just the kind of man that i have always desired
that once in awhile sexual contention thing we do
yet he is to me
the kind of man that i would want more then just to touch
but this is what i have been waiting for i suppose
i have been waiting for that new kind of pain
the kind that we let ourselves indulge in
the temptation of love
the experimental lust
and then when it all came up and was questioned
i just wanted it to all go away
and i dont know why