Ravenheart

Spiral Staircase

As I lay cold and lifeless
A pale blue light appears,
It bids me rise and follow,
And helps to erase my fears.
As my spirit rises,
I look down to the ground,
And see my lonely body,
There's no one else around.
I feel no apprehension,
But rather peace and calm,
I turn around to follow
But the light is gone.
Now it it's place, a staircase,
Spiraling and long,
And somewhere up above me,
A soft and soothing song.
I reach the stairs and wonder,
Did my life really end?
But, no, it's just the beginning,
And I start to ascend.

Posted 1/17/02

Drowning

Sucked down in the quicksand,
I can't breathe, there's no air,
I reach out for someone to save me,
It's no use, there's nobody there.

I feel myself being pulled deeper,
And suddenly everything's gray,
As darkness fills in all around me,
I feel myself slipping away.

My mind turns to you, "Come and save me!"
I scream out to you in my head,
When you finally do come to save me,
It's too late, I'm already dead.

Posted 1/17/02

The One

Are you the one who takes over my thoughts,
And makes me think only of you?
The one who can get in my head and my heart,
And make me not know what to do?

Are you the one who can touch me so soft,
Or take me so hard and fast?
Who makes me feel more than I've felt before,
And makes my heart think this can last?

Are you the one I can tell all my dreams,
And share all my worries and fears?
The one who has made me fall deeply in love,
The one who will love me for years?

You are the one who had taken my heart,
And made me lose all my control.
I know you're the one I will love all my life,
With all my body and soul.

Posted 1/17/02

One Day

Me, myself, cause of all problems,
Confused, conflicted, so unsure.
Try really hard to figure it out,
Maybe one day you will.

Or maybe that one day will never come.
Maybe I'll wonder forever and never understand.
Why couldn't you say what you really wanted to say?
You told me so much, but at the same time so little.

Was it just me or did you really feel it too?
It felt so real then, and I think that it was,
Even if it was all in my head.

You knew everything inside me,
But still you let go.
Yet, you kept coming back,
Leaving me so confused.

Maybe one day you will understand,
What you really lost.
Or maybe that day will never come.

Posted 1/17/02

Pain

Lost, drowning in the darkness
Keep it all inside, never say a word.
Always there inside me,
One day will it all come pouring out?

Afraid to speak the truth,
It might hurt too much.
If I let it out,
Will it rip me apart?

All these feeling kept inside,
For fear of the hurt they might cause.
Never forgetting, always feeling,
Can I take the pain?

Posted 1/17/02

Angel

So young, so soon, why were you taken away?
You are always in my heart.
And always in my head.

Sometimes I can feel you,
Or hear your voice calling my name.
Is it all in my head, or are you still there?

I remember your smile, your laugh, your touch,
Memories that will never fade.
Do you have memories of me?

You'll always be with me,
These feelings won't die,
And one day we will meet again.

Posted 1/17/02

Music

Here all alone,
With the stereo on,
Lie back and listen 'til all else is gone.

Lost in the music,
Consumed by the sound,
Singing along when there's no one around.

Voices that move me,
Emotions so real,
Their words flow right through me, their rhythm I feel.

It runs through my veins,
And makes me feel whole,
I feel music's passion with my heart and soul.

Posted 1/17/02

                          Childhood Memories

   Young and alone, I lived on the streets,
   On a bench in the park I'd cry myself to sleep,
   You, nice and warm in your big, comfy bed,
   You never even knew if I was alive or dead.

   Each time I saw you I hoped you would say,
   You can come home to live with me today,
   But you only asked was I staying with friends,
   And I'd lie and say yes and just hope it would end.

   Why didn't I tell you the horrible truth,
   That your selfishness was destroying my youth,
   That your youngest child lived alone on the streets
   And never quite knew the next time he would eat.

   Those nights that I felt so lonely and cold,
   The feelings inside me that never were told,
   I try to forget, keep it all locked inside,
   But all of these memories, just won't subside.

   The anger and hatred, confusion and pain,
   It won't go away, it just drives me insane,
   I hope that some day you will feel what I do,
   And when that day comes, I won't be there for you.

   Posted 1/27/02

                        The Escape

   The sky was full of big, gray clouds,
   The forecast called for rain,
   And deep within those gloomy clouds,
   The raindrops began to complain.

   Tired of being trapped inside
   Those rain clouds in the sky,
   The tiny droplets wanted out,
   And voiced their reason why.

   "We're tired of being kept inside,
    we want to be let out."
   Cried one small raindrop from the back,
   Then others started to shout.

   "There's never any room to move,
   we're always cramped and squished."
   As their frustrations surfaced,
   They began to shove and push.

   "Now just calm down," one raindrop said,
   "There is no need to shout.
   If we can make the rain clouds mad,
   I bet they'll throw us out."

   "So everyone jump up and down,
   And push against the walls,
   But just remember if this works,
   Be ready for the fall."

   All the raindrops liked this plan,
   And they began to leap,
   They soon were bouncing forecfully,
   And the rain clouds couldn't sleep.

   "Stop doing that!" the rain clouds yelled,
   As they started to get mad,
   For all that jumping from within,
   Was hurting them so bad.

   When they could take the pain no more,
   They let the raindrops fall,
   And as they watched the raindrops go,
   They heard the raindrops call.

   "Thank you, clouds!" the raindrops yelled,
   "We wanted to be free!"
   They looked around admiring
   All the sights that they could see.

   After plunging down a while.
   They saw the ground below,
   But they were falling way too fast,
   They knew they could not slow.

   They realized in that moment,
   That the freedom they had found,
   Was going to cost them dearly,
   Then they smashed into the ground.

   Posted 1/27/02