| Lines
looking back at my early life i see the marks i've left behind some straight and flat others jagged and sharp then there are the marks curved and many intertwining with another it's exactly where my life began with you straight lines of content jagged lines of struggle the curves of our lives as we tried a dance of harmony but looking back at it all the harmony was always there our lines a perfect symphony |
a fleeting glance a chance encounter just a moment for our eyes to meet another world another time a brief "Hello" would you have been mine? the slightest touch an accidental brush a spark of truth the flow of heat one heartbeat a blink of an eye one more sigh this time, this life, goodbye |
A Moment in Time
a tender moment captured in just one second a smile a laugh a tear giggles erupting faces covered with delight a little water a little dirt pies ready to be served! too old too fast grow up and away memories fading time begins to erase the happiest of my thoughts taking a picture for my moment in time |
| I Said I Was Sorry
i said i was sorry it just wasn't meant to be you cried and pleaded and even begged me to see that life would be good you would change for me but i just shook my head and walked away i said i was sorry things won't be the same we've changed we've grown i just couldn't take YOU anymore you held too tight you sheltered me too much i needed to be me i said i was sorry you were afraid that i would find the true me you ranted and raved screamed and yelled moaned and groaned it just wasn't right i'm leaving you now i said i was sorry |
Echoes
listening to the thunder in the distance i pull my coat closer to my body my mind is empty my soul cold darkness slowly rises my breath coming out in white cold wisps your words echo in my head unshed tears cover my eyes all emotions leave my body now an empty shell i listened to your words silent and still i stared you down till you walked away mumbling your apologies and i continued to stand at the same place you left me feeling and not feeling the rain cold air fills my lungs making me realize the chill and so i walk with no purpose as your words echo in my mind |
Innocent Thoughts It was only small talk That's all it really was We said our names And gave our life stories Then the dreams I forgot my life Forgot the people in it I lived in a dream A romance fantasy That seemed so real It was everything I had hoped Everything I had wished And looked for I had to shake myself a few times To bring me back to reality But there you always were Calling out to me Like a beacon in the night To be with you and your life Did you want the same of me? To be a part of my life Then all too soon it ends You stop talking to me You stop calling to me Lights on "What did you think of the movie?" |
| Never Say Goodbye
the time has come although we never say goodbye we part from here not knowing what the future may hold but we never say goodbye go now don't say another word let's part in our separate ways let's say so long for now but never say goodbye |
rain's requiem rivulets of rain water winding its way down the window pane, pouring fast from forever sky, seeing nothing but gray and ghastly demons demanding light with evil laughter thundering throughout the tortured sky, seeking solace from silence rain rapidly reaching watery fingers finding and holding fast one cold kiss |
{untitled} the photo album sticks out of my bookcase waiting for me to open its memory filled pages slowly i turn the pages and i find your picture i stare into your warm and shining eyes i see your smile the smile that would always light up your face i remember all the good times we shared all the times when you cared but those memories are gone you went ahead while i stayed on i close the photo album and put it back in its place shutting the memories leaving no trace |
| contemplation i just sit wondering what i have done to deserve your disgrace you turn your back to me in my time of need and then wonder why i suffer for as long as i have i just sit and cry my hurts taking your stinging words and your lashing lies my soul shrinking once again to the black abyss i just sit and wonder why i take the abuse the hands that bruise the heart with no love or happiness a body with no soul i just sit the numbness taking over my eyes losing the light my body losing life i just sit willing the light to fade willing to be forgotten i just sit and take the final step... i just sit Choices i stared straight ahead thinking am i doing the right thing? the voices in the background are muted and low the wall in front of me begins to dance and sway before my eyes am i doing the right thing? the decision was made there was no turning back |
rush hour closing time computer off straighten desk pens put back to their rightful place "have a great weekend!" ������ "you too" "goodbye" outside the world turns quickly cars rushing people hunched against the wind "excuse me" ������ "pardon me" "coming through" then back down in the underworld thwack! ������ click! thwack! ������ click! rumbling in the rails we move forward pushing each other in like sardines only worse tempers flare ������ got to make that bus ������ got to make that train thwack! ������ click! thwack! ������ click! above ground ������ and they're off! a fast paced dance against the clock ������ swerve here ������ watch it! some fancy footwork till the muscles begin to wear down burning as they climb higher and higher stand to the left ������ walk to the right labored breath sweat from the pores another line ������ hiss! jam traffic out of the city just another day |
The First Time remember the first time we met? quick glances, over-bright smiles friends surround us talking and milling around loud laughter, raised voices observant of every move catching eyes, staring down at the floor inch by inch we dance our way together talking our way through people step aside here, let them pass step aside there, pushed back to the beginning till the silence was deafening and we threw everyone aside only to stand in front of one another uncertain glances, shy smiles soft laughter, quiet voices then the world moves again and we find we're still apart across the room we take our steps for our first dance wintertime spring and time of newness too innocent for my pessimistic heart summer and heat sticky wet, uncomfortable fall, closer to my time cool, cold brisk air whipping around my body but winter, time of death and snow falling on the dead, lifeless leaves childlike laughter erupts within me and the wintertime is my time to rejoice and celebrate |
| into madness mystic demons in my mind clawing at my fragile flesh taking over what is left of my sanity or is my insanity sane? voices speak out to me screaming at me with every turn laughter drowns my cries leaving me to fight the spirits the blood oozes out of me from pus filled sores and boils and there they stand with their condemning red eyes spitting out curses and epitaphs shrinking me to the size of nothing and i crawl on my hands and knees begging for forgiveness the sinner knows not what she has done but the rocks they bruise and break what compassion i had left and my own screams turn to laughter language of the lost souls spewing from my lips till my own eyes glaze over and madness takes over my mind |
staring at the lost memories i remember all the laughter we shared the jokes we told, the pranks we pulled we always wondered at the wee hours of the night if it would always be like this staring at our good times the parties we went the people we met and then wonder what are they all doing now staring at the sad times we cried as we told our real feelings we hugged when we said our goodbyes we made promises to keep writing and calling and to never forget we made a date months from now but i sit and stare at glossy memories and wonder... will we all even be together again |
This is one of two poems I've had published in an anthology. My husband (then boyfriend at the time) sent it in without my knowledge. This poem was written about him, letting him know my own confusion and fears. Enjoy!
(we stay) time is a circle continuous back in my life you brought laughter and tears sadness and fears did you mean to do all this what are you doing here emotions build up inside how should i feel around you i can't trust myself anymore so much you don't know so much i'm afraid to give up would you give up a little of yourself too much at stake to ask for a lot just friends we stay |
January 10, 1901 - January 22, 2000 I never really knew you But you were always there with a smile Though our visits were few and far between We somehow always connected Sharing a link no one had I secretly thought I was your favorite But that's my secret between you and me Our pictures and accomplishments Still hang on your wall Your token of how proud you were of us, of me We really never understood each other Our worlds as different as night and day But no matter what, the love was always the same The last time I saw you My heart nearly broke in two I think you recognized me Then I saw that spark of remembrance Giving me that same smile you always did Sleep well, Lolo I love you |
that moment staring at the blank page my mind turns over ideaoverideaoverideaoveridea figures form then changes made wordsrunintoeachother the rain battering against the window drums slowly in my head as the dripdripdripdrip from the bathroom sink sends daggers behind my eyes then i start to write but the point goes nowhere and my heart beatsbeatsbeatsbeats pounding at my ears till i clasp my hands over my eyes and scream it echoes in the room and suddenly the spark of life and the ideas flow quickly through my trembling hand feeling creative the sound takes form |
distraction we just said our goodbyes not too long ago at the airport i decided to take a walk in hopes of forgetting that i was with you just a short while ago the park bench was hard and cold my breath coming out in slow, white wisps i still felt your arms around me and your lips against mine staring out in the distance my eye catches a white distraction lifting slightly with the wind lazily floating from side to side i concentrate on it wanting to be free just like that spirit soaring, just to be with you dying wind, the paper settles and time for me to go back alone |
| This poem is dedicated to my boss who is the "you" in this. It came after a very hard day and an even harder week. If you just felt like you've been punched in the stomach, then you've just experienced what I felt. Enjoy!
plight climbing and clawing grasping at straws pushing to make my way too fast, so soon a milestone being made but you kick me down to the bottom afraid of what they say a protege an ingenue you made me who i am yet i'm treated like i don't belong when they put me to the test and you stand aside laughing and blaming all the while if you didn't want me here why did you bother? i kick i scream my voice remains silent |
This poem was written during a mystery party. My character wrote this for the man she was starting to see. To Edward...From Brenda :o)
Dedication The gleam in your eyes The light of your smile I can only wonder what your eyes see The softest touch The gentlest kiss And I ask myself, What does it all mean? Feelings deep inside My heart cannot abide To be alone again I embrace you with my being I take you into my soul Your light takes my darkness away And I'm free to take flight To a wondrous world Of our creation Our light and heat Keeping us together |
Burning with desire I yearn to hold you once again Aching with a need To feel your body close to mine Trembling with anticipation I long to hear your voice These lover's hands Caress you gently As you sleep through the night Awake, sweet one So that I may once again Behold a loved one's eyes The heat flows through me Twisting around every fiber of my being I gasp with delight I cry out with joy The angels sing with exaltation And the heavens are silent once more |
| This is something I hope to give to my own daughter in the future. Letter to my daughter that I wish my mother would�ve written to me Dearest daughter, Enjoy the simple pleasures in life. For once you think your life really begins You�ll wish you could go back to the simple pleasures. Enjoy the dandelions. Ask the innocent question: Do you like butter? Follow the butterfly in the meadow Till you realize there�s a whole new world around you. Don�t let others think you are less than beautiful. You were created from love And that is the true beauty of it all. Don�t listen to rumors It will only make you second guess yourself. Be strong and believe in who you are. Play football with the boys. Scorn cheerleaders if you like. Don�t dream to be Miss Universe (unless you want to) Dream to be the first woman center in major league hockey instead. Read books, write novels. Express yourself. Be who you want to be And not for who I want you to be. I love you for you Not because you get good grades Not because you were homecoming princess Or the prom queen. You are beauty personified and that I am most proud of. Marry for love and not for money or status. Carry your own style. Start your own trend. And if they talk about you behind your back Lift your head higher and smile. Cause they see who you are and you exist In wonderful glory and they won�t forget you. Criticisms may hurt but learn from them. Steel yourself against the harsh words and world. Let no one keep you back. Go away. Study abroad. Don�t let my fears of you away from home stop you. I�ve got to learn to grow up too. You don�t have to be voted Most likely to succeed Because in my eyes You have already exceeded beyond my expectations. You don�t have to be popular Who needs the added responsibility Of being happy all the time? Right some wrongs Wrong some rights Challenge and break all the stereotypes. Follow your dreams. Be a jetsetter Be a dancer Be a model Be a lawyer Be a doctor Be a homemaker, if you like Be a wife Be a mother But most of all, be your own woman! It�s that woman I look forward most to meeting To share my dreams, my aches, my fears, my upsets and my regrets. But most of all to share the love I will always have Since the day you came into my life And your tiny fingers wrapped around my finger Strengthening the bond we will forever share. Keep this and know my words come from my heart Advice to take with you when I am gone And to pass when the time is right. Love, forever and always, Mom |