Will i ever find a Master i can love
and who will love me in return?
If i were to walk away now,
Could i ever forget who and what i am ?
Without a shadow of a doubt i never will
Before You came into my life,
There was a gray shadow in my head
Of what and whom i might be
Now the shadow is gone
In it's place a clear picture stands
It will be there forever,
only death can take it now
Who and what i am is now a clear reality
Should i strive to deny my own reality?
That is no longer possible .
i can choose to deny other's realities
But i can never again deny my own
My reality can become my way of life
Or it can haunt my life
if i choose for it to haunt my life
Then i shall forever be the haunted one
By my own unfulfilled reality
Then surely, to live my reality
Must be the road to take,
And yet...............
If i choose to live my reality,
Will You lead me safely?
My understanding of O/our relationship to one another
Is that i have only the right to ask for my safety
Either with You as my Master
Or with whoever You ultimately dispose me to
My choices are so few
The act of choosing is fraught with many fears
i see the choices only too clearly
i can live my reality
i can deny my reality
i do not choose to die,
And in denying my own reality i would die
A slow daily death of living a lie
Should i throw myself prostrate at Your feet?
Thus accepting all realities
Or should i just , walk away ?
It would take one tiny step
To place myself, at Your feet
Yet it would be my whole life lying there
If there is any kindness in You
i beg You deal with me kindly
Should i walk this path to You, and face my reality
