Realization while standing in the bathroom after hearing my family fight.
It’s 9:08.
I’m standing in the bathroom
Looking at my scabbed face,
I realize how large my chin is
How fat my hips are.
I put my hair up
As if it will fix me.
This fucking hair.
It’s too fucking red.
My too-bright eyes.
I pull on my roots to feel only that.
There’s a war in my brain.
I feel so ugly.
Other people tell themselves that if others get to know them,
Looks don’t matter.
I’m on the brink of tears as I realize
I’m as fucked on the inside as I am on the outside.
