| Together at Last Jeremy, Jeremy, Jeremy� The only thought that ever brought a smile to my lips. Now all it brings to me is heartache and tears. Everyone said I was obsessed. They were wrong. I wasn�t obsessed, I was in love. No one can tell a seventeen year old that they don�t know what love is, because who would they be to measure your feelings for another person? No one knows how you feel but you and I know what I felt and still feel now, was, and is, love. But now what I felt doesn�t matter and what I feel now holds no meaning because the object of my affection is gone. Jeremy was taken from me last night thanks to a stupid drunk driver who was too hammered to keep control of his own car. The doctors said Jeremy never even had a chance� All of his hopes and dreams were shattered the moment the two cars collided. Now he�ll never get to become a pediatrician, he�ll never get his license the way he was supposed to next week, he�ll never graduate the way he was supposed to in June, he�ll never get married, never have children of his own to care for and worst of all, he�ll never see the day when scientists find the cure for cancer and save his mother. I know how selfish this is going to sound but I can�t help it. Along with the ending of Jeremy�s life, mine has ended as well. My only reason for joy has been taken away. After what today would have been a five year relationship, I�m left without the one person I�ve ever really genuinely cared about. Now all I have left to hold on to are the memories we shared. We�ll never hold hands in the park near my house again, we�ll never once more lie together in the sand at the beach at night and stare up at the stars, we�ll never have another new years eve together where we kiss before the fire to start a new year together. He�ll never again sing me the song he wrote for me on my fifteenth birthday. We shared so much together and now it�s all gone� lost forever� He was the one person who always supported my dreams and aspirations for my future. He was the only one who told me that no matter what my goals would always be within my reach. He told me I was beautiful� There are just no words to describe how I�m feeling right now. It�s already three A.M. and I just can�t sleep, even though I�ve been trying to for the past two hours, because all I can think of is Jeremy; the way his green eyes would sparkle when he spoke about how he wanted to take care of sick children, or the way his hair would fall in front of his face when he laughed, or the way his hand always managed to find mine no matter where we were. What I would give to see him right now� He always brightened a room when he walked into it. There was something about him that always seemed to make people want to be around him. He was such a giving person and his unselfishness never ceased to amaze me. It�s just so impossible to comprehend that he is no longer a part of my life or this crazy world that he used to belong to. I just want to be with him again� so Mom and Dad, I�m sorry, really I am. You know how much I love you and how grateful I am for all you�ve given me, but when you find this letter and the empty bottle of pills by my bed, please forgive me for the pain I�m causing you by taking away you�re only daughter. Please know that I�m in a better place and I�m happy! Now Jeremy and I can be together at last in a place where neither of us can be brutally taken away from the other. When you eventually hear that song by Donna Lewis, �I Love You Always Forever�, think of me and Jeremy and know that we will always be watching over you the same way you watched over us all of our lives. I will love you always but now it�s time for me to say goodbye Your Daughter, Caitlyn |
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