For once, I have a regret. I think that I wish I had not even gone on msn.. It has branched much emotional pain to me, and caused me to live for others, instead of myself.. I hope no one ever reads this, but I don't like taking away that potential for it to be found out.. so I'm posting this on my website.
To the person that reads this, I am probably close to you already, and obviously talk to you on msn. I apologise if this hurts you at all.. but the reason I regret this is because of all the pain it has caused me.. that it has been the only social connection I have had throughout my troubles.. if it were not for it, I may have made a stronger initiative to go out and take a hold of myself, as I now am.
At this point in time, I'm doing my best to hold onto something really matters most to me; a girl. She knows who she is, and the person reading this, also should know (I can't see a stranger or some random person barging through my websites crap). I can't just let go of this girl, but I feel that I have caused her many problems as well, as most relationships tend to do... quite simply, if things do not work out, I will abolish msn for the benefit of myself and others.
