What am I trying to accomplish by analyzing every motivation and ideal?
Why are we self-preserved? Is it truly inevitable?
Can a person be devoid of any selfish motivations?
Why do these question come to my head?
What do I really want? Attention? An answer? Or a purpose?
By looking in depth into things; am I trying to create philosophy out of nothing?
What happens when you die? And.. why?
Do other people truly care for others? Or is it truly all selfish motivations?
Why do I desire love so much?
What would it be like to have amnesia and re-discover myself? Would I approve of myself?
Does anyone else find my ideals and ideas interesting? Do many people agree with them..?
Does time really exist? Or is it just a concept invented by man?
There is too much hope placed into religions.
Why do I want to be able to turn off my emotions?
Is emotions a weakness? I have experienced too much hurt..
Self-Preservation
Selfish desires and motivations. We all do what things and decide our actions for ourselves and our future, commonly disregarding the repracussions that may includ collateral effects on those innocents by you or those that care for you. We all go through life making decisions based upon our past and memories. Our memories and genes determine our ideals, views, beliefs, and personality. When we begin our lives; we are not nearly as intelligent as we are 20 years from then, because by then, we are educated and cultured. But what if we could have a chance to take things in, with intelligence and comphrenesion. Amnesia is the closest availability; unfortunately, memories still reside in the inner depths of the mind; this disrupts the pattern. Also, genes remain to pre-ordain many of our natural instincts which is, in it's own nature, a minor form of fate. When we are first born, we do not bare the comprehension to decide major actions and dramatic decisions. Although, we still bare our genes which determine our tastes, likes, and dislikes. A baby will might like apple, but not grapes, whereas another, the opposite. This single gene characterists along with the millions of others conglomerate and slowly assimilate the personality for that human being, which in turn, creates their comprehension of the world, slowly. Through experience in life, we are able to comprehend more in life and what reality has to offer. We base our actions and decisions on our past experience; thus, self-preservation begins to come into play, however. We are all selfish in nature, acting and thinking on our own behalfs. Is this, ethically, a "good" thing or a "bad" thing? Is there a better personality character attribute that can override this motivation and attribute of selfish virtues?
Too Smart
Our intelligence has reached us to higher goals, technology, culture, etc. It has also brought along with it religious beliefs and further ideals. Is this what we should be doing? Are we avoiding our true purpose to simply pass on our genes? Our primitive instincts is to feed and mate. Because of our intelligence, this has become a minor objective although all of our other primary objectives in life are derived from these two basic instincts. Jobs, for money, for food, and culture items. Culture items such as books, movies, paitings, etc. Because of our intelligence, we developed the ideal that being naked is "wrong". However, in our primitive years, this is not frowned upon whatsoever, although wearing clothing has become a tradition to keep warm and protection from nature. Our selfish and paranoid minds have given the naked body, however, a perverted connotation. Why do we do this? Why do we critise our natural and primitve instincts instead of grasp them? Why do we develop religious beliefs that are essentially fake and fictional?
Religion
Hope. This is, put simply, the purpose of religion. Hope, and a reason to not fear death. Our mortal coil is our greatest fear, and religion helps to alleviate this fear. Although, humans have given religion a mongering and dirty connotation and motivation. Using religions and religious ideals to recruit followers and zealots, then heard them to their bidings; typically oppressing those whom have contradicting views to their own. Holy wars and wars in the name of God are the most commong amongst man.
Myself
Why am I interested so incredibly much in therapy? I know why. Because I have lacked much attention and affection in my youth, especially from peers. I have been oppressed in my childhood, thus, any minor form of affection is exaggerated and absorbed quickly. Because I am so in need and want to have attention given to myself, although I feel that it will not happen, I feel that by giving attention, affection, and aid to others, I may enlighten myself by seeing that I have brought joy to others has been my only emotional catharsis; I have yet to meet a person whom fulfills the gap in my soul and heart that aches terribly to be analyzed and given affection and attention. It is easy for me to fall for people for give me the slightest affection, thus why I believe I crave love so much and easily fall into it sometimes, blinded. I have been hurt several times, cheated on, manipulated, used.. With no forgiveness asked from me. I am hurt and my dreams are typically full of sorrow, sadness, because of the oppression I have been given, I now see this upon myself and believe it to be true. If anyone can ever change this, then I think my answers will finally come... I wonder if I want them however..
