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...and what am I doing about it? Nothing. The black hole swallows every light. (All right, so one cute circular reference... two counting this reference to no circular references.... What can I say? I have a certain style of writing.) ...but nothing. Microsoft Golf. Free Cell. I'm so overwhelmed by everything that nothing gets done. I braised three pieces of pork the other night and had one for supper. I made spaghetti sauce from the braising liquid. I had half of another piece for a sandwich for lunch today. I took the rest and made a pot of bean soup, some for supper tomorrow and I'll freeze the rest for next week. I know no one who can take so little food and stretch it into so many meals. When I crave a cigarette, I take a nap. I've been sleeping a lot the past three days. Yet, the cravings are not easing or going away, and when waking up I realize I haven't accomplished anything at all. The only times I smile are when a good song comes on the radio or when I accidentally bump by head against the wind chimes hanging in my living room. My god, I wish I had someone to massage my shoulders now... someone to hold me tonight and let me know I'm loved and that everything's going to be okay. |