Title: Cocoon - Part 6
Author: Candice ([email protected])
/ Mizuki ([email protected])
Mirror: yes
Archive: yes
Band: Pierrot
Pairings: AU kiritoXaiji incest. In this fic, both of them are brothers.
Warning: Use of the f-word.... and violence in sex.....
All right, from this part onwards, it's gonna get a bit complex.... I have
tweaked this part so many times til I nearly got myself confused as well.....
Hopefully, my "Shinya" perspective is good....
Luv,
Candice ^^
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[Jun]
Finally! I'm off work! I whistled to myself as I waited impatiently for the bus
to arrive at the stop. Though tired, I couldn't wait to go home to see Aiji
again. The thought of him staying at home, waiting for me, warmed my heart.
"Ai-chan~ I'm home~" I yelled as I opened the door to my house.
"Ai-chan?" I frowned when there was no sign of Aiji. Then, I saw a
little mess on the floor. An emptied bottle and some split liquid....
Puzzled, I avoided the mess, went into the kitchen, came out again, and went
into my bedroom. I got a shock the minute I entered my bedroom.
I stared unbelievably at the mess on my bed.... there were blood stains...
and.... semen?!?! And then I saw the tattered remains of my shirt which I had
let Aiji wore...
I was going to scream when I noticed a little object lying among the mess.
Picking it up, I saw that it was a tape. I looked around my room and found my
player. Inserting the tape into the player, I played it...
"No... don't...." I blinked when I heard the soft pleading voice. Aiji??
"You are not being honest, Aiji..." This other voice.... Kirito?!?!
Then I heard soft moanings.... "AHHHHHH!!!!!"
"Oniisan~ yameru~ itai~!" I widened my eyes in horror as I turned back
to look at my bed.... Kirito was making love to Aiji on my bed?!?!
There was a minute of silence before it was broken by another scream. Then, the
cries and moanings started again, this time Aiji was louder, and more aroused?!
I clenched my fists in anger as I listened to Aiji's moanings and cries.... It
was a while before there was silence again... but before I could stop the tape,
Kirito's voice came on...
"Jun.... did you enjoy this? Are you very aroused now, like I was?" I
heard Kirito's chuckle.
"Thanks for letting me use your bed.... And oh, about not letting Aiji be
with me.... he's MINE and I will do what I want with him, including fucking
him!!!"
I fumed when I heard Kirito laughing madly after that.
"Kirito, you bastard!!!" I screamed angrily as I threw the player onto
the floor....
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[Shinya]
Looking at the old, musty surroundings, I remembered fondly that this was the
place that I often came to when I wanted to be alone by myself... It was a
secret hiding place for me.... Nobody knew about here except me....
With Aiji slung over my shoulders, I walked into a room and laid him down
carefully on the metal chair. Giving him a kiss on the forehead, I took off my
shirt, draped it over him, and then went out to get the stuffs from my car.
An hour later, the whole place became tidier and cleaner. I smiled, pleased with
my own work. I turned my attention to Aiji and saw that he was still sleeping.
The drug that I had given him was strong... he should still be unconscious for
the next 2 hours...
Walking over to him, I removed my shirt from him, lifted and carried him in my
arms. There was still time.... we could take a bath together to get ourselves
cleaned up...
An hour later, I carried Aiji out of the bathroom, and placed him on the bed
which I had cleaned up earlier. I stared at his naked form, mesmerized by his
sleeping face and that slim body of his.
Turning away from him, I took a cigarette out from my shirt pocket and started
puffing away. I didn't know why... but I started to think about my mother....
I recalled bitterly that the once-happy family that I had was gone when my
parents decided to get a divorce.
*flashback*
My mother had fallen out of love with my father, and was going to marry another
man. It was a very painful separation as she had insisted that I followed her,
and Aiji followed my father. And, it was also agreed that both parties should
not contact one another again....
I was angry and sad at the same time, as my mother had broken up this wonderful
family that we used to have. But, since I loved her very much, I hid all these
feelings within me, hoping that my step-father would treat us well.
Initially, my step-father was good to us, but as time passed, he slowly revealed
his true colours....
I was coming home from school one day, when I heard noises from my parents'
bedroom... Out of curiousity, I took a peek into their room. I got a shock when
I saw my step-father having sex with another woman. The affair continued for
quite a while until one day, I was caught peeping by my step-father. He had
threatened to kill me and my mother if I ever told on him. I had no choice but
to agree to keep mum about the affair.
But this did not stop there, he started bringing different women into the house
whenever my mother was not around. Sometimes, there was just one, but sometimes
there were more....
One day, he dragged me out of my room, and forced me to watch him as he had sex
with those whores.... I couldn't escape as he would lock the door and then
threaten to kill my mother if I didn't obey him...
At first, I was disgusted with his acts and those women he brought home.... but
as time passed, I got used to it.... I started to dislike women, thinking that
all of them were nothing but cheap whores, waiting to be fucked.
These affairs came to a stop temporarily when my mother caught him in the act
and confronted him. The confrontation turned out to be a mistake... My
step-father nearly beat her up badly, had I not interfered in time. But, what
happened next, affected me the most....
He forced my mother to have sex with him, in front of my very eyes.... I still
remembered vividly how he made her became like one of those whores whom he
frequently brought back.... begging him for more...
At that moment, my heart shattered to pieces when I saw my own mother succumbing
unashamedly to his sexual abuses.... I cried...
After that incident, I often ran away from home to isolate myself from them,
hiding out in this little rundown house. I started ignoring my mother, and
hating my step-father. I didn't have friends... so I was very much alone by
myself... Sometimes, when I thought of Aiji and my father, and the happy times
that we used to have as a family, I cried.
Then one day, when I couldn't stand my step-father's womanising ways anymore, I
decided to take matters into my own hands and punish him. I was inside my room
when he was having sex with the whore in his bedroom.
Frustrated, I walked out of my room and ran into the kitchen. Looking around, I
saw some matches lying on the shelf. I walked quietly to my parents' bedroom,
and sneaked inside without them noticing me. I lighted one of the matches on one
corner of the futon, another on one of the tatamis on the floor, and quickly
sneaked back out again.
Grinning gleefully to myself, I walked out of the house calmly to hide myself in
the bushes.
Then, I heard panicky screams when I saw the flames of the fire wreaking havoc
in the room. The fire became bigger as the flames spread from the room to other
corners of the house. I laughed madly to myself, cursing the bastard and bitch
to hell.
But I stopped when I heard a familiar voice crying out my name.
"NO!!! KIRITO!!!" I looked up but was too late to react when I saw my
own mother running into the house.
"OKAASAN!!!!" I cried as I scrambled to my feet and tried to run
towards the house. But I couldn't get near the house as the fire was so hot that
its heat singed me.
Just then, a figure engulfed in flames came staggering out of the house.
"OKAASAN!!!!"
I watched in horror as I saw my own mother struggling in the fire. She was
calling out to me but I couldn't hear what she said. I stood there motionlessly
watching the scene before my eyes till the firemen came. But it was too late, my
mother was burnt to death together with that bastard and his bitch.
I didn't cry... even though tears were sliding down my cheeks....
I couldn't remember what happened after that. But I remembered being in a home
for a very long time, and then I was locked away and isolated from other people
for being violent.
Violent...? I smiled to myself. Was it wrong if I'm only just
"repaying" what people had done to me?!?!
I hate those people who think they know everything when they don't! I hate
liars!
Liars... Yes... Somebody like Dr. Takeo! I frowned as I recalled the doctor who
visited me when I was being locked up.
I thought maybe he had understood me, and could help me to take revenge on those
people. But no, he was trying to kill me! He lied that he could help me get out
of the home and that I would be able to lead life on my own again. He lied! He
lied! Damn him! I hate him!!!
I remembered vividly that fateful day when I was about to be "killed".
I screamed at him to stop but he only looked at me expressionlessly. I didn't
know what happened after that but I felt strange, as if I had really died, and
was no longer in control of my body. I found myself in a place devoid of life
and feelings.
I didn't know how long I had stayed there... Until one day, I heard a soft voice
calling out to me. It sounded so much like.... Aiji...
I couldn't remember anything at all, but the next moment when I was conscious
again. I found myself in an apartment with Aiji, my own brother, sitting beside
me on a couch...
I remembered him smiling at me sweetly, and then saying "good night"
to me before he turned in for the night. I was still sitting there dazedly,
unsure of what had happened, and could only nod dumbly. After he closed his
door, I went around the house, exploring every corner. I went into another room,
which was a bedroom and seemed to belong to me. I didn't bother with much but
went to sleep since I was very tired.
But the next day, I figured out what happened when I accidentally bumped into
Dr. Takeo again.
I was wandering along the streets aimlessly when he called out to me. Surprised,
I looked up and saw him. At first, I was angry to see him, but I kept my cool
and forced myself to return a small smile.
He asked how I was, how was I doing in my job, and with my girl friend. I gave
him non-committal replies saying that I was fine, busy and tired, but otherwise
I'm fine.
He was convinced and didn't suspect a thing. He only told me to look him up
again, if I ever needed any help.
After we parted, I started piecing things together and figured out that somehow,
this doctor meddled with my mind, and "erased" me. I smiled to myself,
well, since he didn't know that I'd come back, I should continue to play his
game and get my revenge later...
I gave myself another name, "Shinya". It was weird, but both myself
and the current "Kirito" were actually sharing this body together....
it's as though we were two different persons.... But it wasn't long that I
discovered a third being inside this body as well. The third being was "Kiri".
Unknown to everybody, including those two, I was aware of everything that was
going around us, even when I was not in control... Unlike "Kirito" and
"Kiri" who were oblivious to my existence, I was not.
Till now, I had not figured out what brought me back... I could only guessed
that the cause could be Aiji...
Aiji's appearance, after so many years, affected "Kirito".... The
feeling that "he" had was similar to what I had experienced when I saw
Aiji for the first time through my own eyes, after my coming back....
Aiji's laughter, his innocent smiles, the way he dressed and the way he moved
that slim body of his.... they very much caught my attention.... The time that I
was able to spend with Aiji was very little... most of the time I could only
observed him through "Kirito"...
"Kiri" was often "locked up" so I wasn't concerned about him
at all. I was more concerned about Jun, Aiji's friend....
Aiji knew Jun before he found "Kirito", and because of that, the two
of them were very close. Both "Kirito" and "Kiri" had fallen
for our own brother, though "they" didn't dare to admit it. As for me,
I was beginning to get irritated by Aiji's closeness with Jun. But I kept my
feelings under control, knowing fully well that I would get my revenge if I
bidded my time.
But "Kirito" was weak. "He" would wallow in self-pity each
time Aiji was together with Jun. And this gave me the chance to escape and take
control over the body we were sharing...
*end of flashback*
Aiji..... I threw my cigarette away, sat down on the bed next to his sleeping
form, and gently caressed his face.
Both "Kirito" and "Kiri" loved him, but it was different for
me. I don't love him because I saw love as a weakness and I hate love! But I
knew I lusted after him.... I wanted him to be mine, and MINE ALONE! I want to
be able to do what I want with him, as and when I like it.
"Mmmm....." I stopped caressing Aiji's face when he started to stir
from his sleep. I took the blue bottle from the side-table and looked at it with
a smile. I'm going to make Aiji mine permanently... out of his own free will...
~owari~
Part 8