Title: Cocoon
Author: Mizuki
Edit: Candice
Archive: yes... but email me first. 'coz I'm sure that this chapter must be full
of mistakes! So gimme a chance to correct them b4 u post it please?
Band: Pierrot
Pairings: In fact it was supposed to be Kirito x Kohta. demo my friend Shizu
prevented me from writing *really* incest again. So now it's kiritoXaiji,
similar to my DEG's fic raison d'etre, okay?
Comment: I afraid that Kohta won't show up in this fic. Don't blame me and see u
next time Kohta! I will put u into my fic ASAP if I figured out some good kirXko
incest fic's idea! ^___^ Keep on cramming more Haruki Murakami's novel
"Norwegian Wood" to continue this part. But the story becomes too
complex. Sometimes I dunno what I'm exactly writing... kowai~ T_T And to tell u
the truth, I'm not having MPD and am neither a psychologist, so my description
of Kirito's personality might be totally wrong!
Dedication: Cee, Sarah, VM, candice, Mi Chan, Kiri, Jennifer and all readers out
there! ^^ But, what am I writing actually???
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[Identity: Unknown]
Now you quickly turned around and ran out of Dr.Takeo's office, running along
the hospital passageway in a hurry. Some nurses shouted at you for running and
you bumped into a handful of passers-by accidentally. They shouted at you; some
of them tried to stop you, but you heard none of them.
Because your brain was so filled with the echo of Dr.Takeo's sentences, that you
couldn't hear anything else.
~So what you are going to do with this, dear Kirito-chan?~
Then I saw you passing through empty lots and walkways without a thought and
without a care in the world. I could tell you're at a loss, so there may be a
perfect chance for [us] to escape from your control, Kirito.
Hmm.. maybe you had already started to wonder who am I?
Why I kept spying on Kirito? And you might also thought that the way I speak was
weird. Therefore, before anyone get more confused, let me explain that I'm
Kirito, but at the same time I am not. Even in appearance, the two of us looked
exactly the same....
Probably someone would think that I'm "Kiri"... but Hey! You are
making a mistake again! I'm not Kirito nor "Kiri" Was it a surprise
for you ne?
Actually, I am just who I am. Not anyone else.
I have been here together with Kirito all along, but no one had ever been aware
of my existence.
Not even Dr.Takeo....
As a matter of fact, I should be grateful to Dr. Takeo. If he hadn't told Kirito
"the news", he wouldn't be so stressed out and confused, and both
"Kiri" and I wouldn't have had a chance to escape from his
sub-consciousness.
And yet Dr. Takeo was no longer a problem, because I know I could trick
everyone, even him. Unlike "Kiri" who didn't have Kirito's memory, I
was always the one who stood here with Kirito, watching his every move from the
inside, so I knew him far too well indeed.
Could you see that? It wasn't hard for me to pretend to be Kirito ne...
As long as you're confused so badly and unwilling to face the fact, Kirito...
the stronger I would become.
Maybe one day I could be in charge of this body eventually, because I knew you
always have a habit of "locking" yourself up in your murky
sub-consciousness, trying to avoid reality....
Soon enough just as I had expected, there was no signs of Kirito in the next
morning. I thought he was still wandering in the depths of his
sub-consciousness. But in spite of making my escape, I decided to let "Kiri"
at large first.
"Kiri" was just a harmless little thing. He only knew that he was free
suddenly one day but he didn't know the true reason why he could be free... Only
I knew the reason.
Sorry that I couldn't tell you my name now, because I still had none.. And I
haven't given myself a name either, but soon I will...
(Author: The incident above happened the day before "Kiri" showed up
ne^^.. Hope I hadn't confused u too badly...)
****
[Kirito]
At 7:00pm I made my way to Genome Avenue, waiting for the girl whom I've been
dating for a month, Miko. Meanwhile I couldn't stop frowning as a wave of
headaches struck me.
Before I left the office, I did offer myself some painkillers. But unfortunately
it didn't seem to work out and my headaches worsened. As if I had been drinking
too much yesterday, I started trying to recall what had happened yesterday.
Again and again I tried to remember but nothing came to me. How strange? My
memory had hardly failed me before. For example I still remembered things that
happened the day before, the memory was still vivid, but yesterday? It was a
blank....
I just couldn't remember! I leant against the wall as another sharp pain ran
through my head. Damn it! With that I began to get nervous.
Actually, to tell the truth, the same thing did happen to me back when I was a
child... For several days within a year, I would lose my memory for a whole day.
But all these stopped after Dr. Takeo's treatment long time ago.
Dr. Takeo? I paused for a second. Why did came into the picture so suddenly?
As I thought of Dr.Takeo, my headaches worsened. It was so painful that I had to
stop thinking about him, and let my mind turned blank, completely blank...
Now my head was really starting to hurt terribly... Maybe I had better see a
doctor. But, why did everything seem darker so suddenly? I wondered, but there
was no answer for me, as my vision started to blur. My eyes were so heavy, that
I had to close them for a while.
Suddenly all the strength was drained from my body as if someone had just crept
up behind me and pulled the plug. Then I felt myself disappearing into my
inner-self and I couldn't do anything to stop it....
****
"Hi Kirito-chan!" When Miko finally arrived, she called out cheerfully
to her boyfriend who was standing at the corner of the sideway.
But there was no response from the dark head, as he stood motionlessly still, as
if he couldn't see or hear the woman.
"Kirito? Kirito-chan?" Miko looked at her boyfriend worriedly.
Slowly he started to hear a voice calling out to him. Although he didn't like
that sickly sweet female voice at all, he realized it was the first sound he had
heard directly from the world outside....
"Err.. are you feeling okay?" She asked again but the latter didn't
seem to hear her at all.
It took a few minutes of silence before he focused his eyes slowly, and saw the
woman, and recognised her as Kirito's girlfriend. But what was her name...?
"daijoubu desu ka" Miko asked uneasily, her smile fading a bit.
Oh yeah... her name is Miko, he recalled, finally.
Miko.... what a stupid name. He add the last sentence with a dry chuckle in his
mind.
"Kirito-chan? Are you listening?" Seeing that her boyfriend didn't
seem to be really paying any attention, Miko pouted.
He looked down at the girl, a disturbed look crossed his face.
~How did Kirito pack up such a boring stupid woman?~
"Get away from me." He didn't realise that he'd clenched his fists all
this while.
"What?" Now Miko was totally surprised.
"I said, Get away from me." He repeated again coldly.
Her eyes widened, as she stared at her boyfriend blankly, making her looked
stupidier.
"I don't want to see your face again."
"But, why?!" A chill ran down Miko's spine. She suddenly felt that she
didn't know this man anymore. He looked completely like a stranger.
"I don't think you're interesting any more."
"What?!?!" It was too much. Miko's voice shivered with anger,
"You've been dating me for months only because you think I'm interesting?
What do you think I am?! Kirito!"
~I'm not Kirito, you stupid bitch!~ He thought to himself but he didn't bother
paying any attention to the woman anymore.
"Bye bye, Miko." He said to Miko without even looking at her face, and
then turned his back towards the poor woman and walked quickly away from her.
Then he entered a club across the street. It was time to have some fun....
****
The pub he'd stepped into was a underground jazz pub where a lot of customers
filled almost all of the tables, but the place still wasn't too crowded yet.
He chose to sit alone at the corner of the club. After ordering his drink, he
didn't bother to talk to anyone any further.
There was no hurry. The night was still young.
He'd rather just watch those customers inside the club to make himself get into
the atmosphere of the night instead of having company right away. Because just
like "Kiri", today was the first time he had been able to explore the
world all by himself and do things he wanted.
With this thought in mind, he smiled a bit before lighting himself a cigarette.
While smoking alone, he noticed that there were three women, all of them looked
somewhere around 20, staring in his direction.
"Would you mind if I join in?" He stood up and walked to the women and
asked them.
"No." Those women smiled at him with curiousity on their faces as he
sat down with them.
Soon the waiter arrived to take their order. After all of them ordered their
drinks, he told the waiter he would be paying the bill. "Today is my
turn."
"You're so cool ne~" Those women smiled at him, laughing at their
unexpected good luck, and he smiled back. However, the way he smiled was cold.
"I hadn't seen you around here before?" The woman with long blonde
hair asked, moving even closer to the dark-haired man. "What's your
name?"
"Shinya." The man responded, exhaling a perfect whirlwind of smoke.
"You can call me Shinya."
~owari~