| insignifigant mumblings of the past... tuesday.july.15.2003. i was really awful, and what i do when i feel awful is this...i'm too lazy to get drunk, though that works wonders on the mind as well, it shuts it down for awhile...but i drown myself in music. lame? yes. but here it is. EMOtional bullshit. love to hate, hate to me -- a static lullaby on to morning stars -- anatomy of a ghost when hearts were gold -- a small victory pretend you don't know -- time and distance charity burns green -- days like these looks like rain -- arms of orion chasing signs -- arms of orion lessons -- strutter mid-july -- the pheonix rising our best kept secret -- faraway goodnight bright eyes -- same way again your last song -- great unreliable the last of my letters -- the contigency plan hold on let go -- tom dunphy sway, sway, blue night -- so far away rose syphony massacre -- so far away boxing day -- foster thinking it over -- the clarity part of me (i cannot see) -- citizen uprise star-crossed -- fates end still waiting -- sweet september july -- fairview burning nightswim november -- grace like gravity let go -- a better fall the crush -- last addition sharp end of the heart -- tonight's tommorow hold your breath -- lucked out when i saw the blue -- animal here's to you -- betterlatethannever breathing room -- filmmaker lonely hearts -- drowning fish running out -- turning blue crowded streets, empty skies -- burns.out.bright. teenage anthem -- todays not tommorow you kill -- and ever the sky won't that way forever -- as stars fall bitter anthem -- my lost cause grey area -- the return. for everyone who has lost -- zach wendell the over it song -- ten cent story ---mix 3: to fall in place -- saintmaybe worse off than i thought -- asking autumn insecurity -- hudson river school mixtapes and friday nights (acoustic) -- anola's recovery memories of daydreams past -- lucid chrysalis the breaking point is now -- asking*autumn burn bright -- vote toby the way i've felt -- lucid chrysalis seasonal friends -- madison east bad day -- samian farewell from the floor -- destroying december endings (and beginnings) -- last place champs leave your light on -- tomorrow's regret every step to evade -- the walk home wish for a song -- the drive i'll put the mixes up later. that's a lot, i just realized. thursday.july.10.2003. band of the day -- .the drive Y: "learning to walk away" & "wish for a song" updates: a new "reads" (not up yet) emotionalpunk's best/worst reviews.(i'm working on it RIGHT NOW. whoa.) thursday.july.3.2003. i was so bored right now i decided to make a band. i've also decided i'm going to add games to this site first chance i get; i know you really need these things for summer. at least i do. anyway, you should check out one amazin' kid. i know the stuff is all acoustic, but it really mellows you out, especially if you'd had quite a day. you can make up all the words you want in your head. so that's the band, and the song of the moment is still long shot hero's "all we wanna do" because it just is that addictive. yesss. everyone buy a guitar from me, and eurotrash keyboards. *allie. monday.june.30.2003. category --> emo & ska download list of the day -- driving to virginia all we wanna be -- long shot hero days like these -- exit only... barefoot -- the midway state upstate new york -- one amazin' kid another love song -- the rayguns you started this -- arms of orion book of ex's -- the audience you've been in my heart -- diary-music one day this will be found to -- preston the summertime song -- one amazin' kid your heart is in th poison -- split.decision kill the lights -- races to april dedicated to counterfit -- random at best out of reach -- the victory year picturebooks and dreams -- adara heart to cheek -- deception by silence daniel larusso is going to fight -- the knowhow dumb pop song -- lucky boys confusion elation and dispair -- the silence one day -- driving while stupid everybody says, "really" -- special disaster team for your own good -- day by day (nj) here's to the end -- blood and stars temporary paradise -- boy for sale sold -- bob and the sagets tragedy is beautiful -- varona friday.june.27.2003. i went deviant so i could pester marie. my first work of art is up there. some say art is the interpretation, but i think my freehand will transcend that and be universally beautiful. everyone go listen to the capgun heroes off mp3.com nowww. why? because they rock. and buy their cd with (hold your breath, this is really good): 5 days ahead!, hidden in plain view (good job on drive-thru), attracted to miss, and punchline. screeeam. also, long since forgotten put up the acoustic version of "some sort of meaning?" yeah. well i probably won't see any of you this summer, it's a tough life------ *allie thursday.june.26.2003. inevitably a lot of people probably dislike, strongly feel detest for, or even hate me. and it's about time you just came out and said it. if you have any sort of problem with me, and there's an amazing number of reasons why you could, just say it. send your hate mail this way... [email protected]. and if i don't hear from you, i'll just assume you are pretending you never read this because you "hate" me so much you would never "lower" yourself down to that. but because you're reading this--likely attempting to find every remark i make that will let you think less of me--you should just come right out and say it. *allie. sun jun 22 2003-- "you always want what you can't have." --brian austin green (former 90210 star for an abc family commercial for his new, low-budget made-for-tv romantic comedy.) Be happy, young man, while you are young, and let your heart give you joy in the days of your youth. Follow the ways of your heart.... --Eccelesiates 11:9 band of the day -- the chiodos bros. playlist of the day--june? 01 stop raining -- blue sky goodbye 02 bowl of oranges -- bright eyes 03 rain stained melodies -- army of me fri june 20 2003-- school's out-time to waste away another summer. they are seriously the only thing that makes me feel good anymore. damn. 6 days. cornerstone july 1st. thur june 19 2003-- notice how "june" gets spelled out because i like this month so much. DUDE! watashi wa is the featured band on emotionalpunk.com. go read the review. their rating: overall: 10 sound quality: 10 music quality: 10 production: 10 originality: 10 dude, this is a high-caliber band. i love a band i can be proud of. i'm watching them take off, and it's lovely. sorry, i'm wayyy too proud right now. it's like a soccer mom watching her son grow up and be apart of the cool crowd...a little nostalgic, a little sweet, and a lot happy. i'm shutting up now... OK: they write: "if a record could feel like love, watashi wa's the love of life would be it." i'm telling you...watashi wa DOES that to you. wed june 18 2003-- check out gyroscope and other such bands in *brand new* section of the site where you pick the music. it's called spotlight so, .go check it out. *allie. sit around all day, asking questions that make no sense....--sws tues june 17 2003-- TWO mixes! what else? category --> emo title --> three year philosophy dead on arrival (acoustic) -- fallout boy strongsad rocks out -- the skate party this jagged alibi -- the escape engine cherry wine -- jupiter sunrise vertigo unconsciousness -- the receiving ends of sirens blue -- remembering never qauntam mechanics and hydrodyn -- the chiodos bros. chaos and romance -- n l m sixes and sevens -- faulter eye for an eye -- stars hide fire blank thought reunion -- finer grain for what its worth -- the grand finals this is for you -- time and distance alone -- a moment too soon (nj) everything ends in a fall -- the grand finals don't break my heart -- looking for june he who destroys himself -- novemberkills it always depends -- emery remember to forget -- same way again climbing trees -- the amorphia somber title --> why does the grass grow? friday night special -- call it in the air confessions in a liar -- the residence carlisle, pa -- second string (ny) paper, plastic, whatever's cool -- your envious demise this fine day -- kid conspiracy to be where you are -- this afternoon paint the sky -- destroying december destroying all that remains -- sometime in april bloodshed on the battlefield -- miss october an answer to your question -- with fingers crossed (pa) december 23 (new) -- the early rising the night i died -- crownheartruin it must have been tuesday -- my friend wendell humor me -- from here on out insert knife, turn clockwise -- drawing down the sun makes you wonder -- kick over the traces 1:23am -- garagem 702 totally selfish nothingness: (as donnie says, "show it like you mean it...flaunt it until you don't have it anymore.") Micah Davis Said: ���������������� Micah Davis Said: 16 candles!!!!!! happy birthday tuesday WilliamsburgPunk: happy bday and ROCK ON! aloninsantacruz: happy birthday two days before tuesday... BouncSUnityHope: well for tommarow BouncSUnityHope: happy birthday BouncSUnityHope: i underlined it and everything SmileyMeg05: ..:Happy Birthday::.. (only more colorful) (evan): i freaked when the register rang up "blink 182" for the atticus cd i went: "NOOOO SHE DOESN'T WANT BLINK 182!" mewithoutYou238j: andrew! Friendshipbear4: happy b day! choppedliver: happy birthday to you. happy birthday to you!!! punkrockgirl48: Hope tonight ROCKS hardcore and makes up for all the bad stuff that happened. lilemokiddy: happy 16th!!!! MarieB975: happy bday! jakki: happy birthday, despite all the bad that went on. just hopefully youll go to bed knowing, tomorrow has to be better. (The Donster): Happy Birthday, I heard you like Tooth and Nail Records. I think you'll like the song about waves. I'm writing you a story. Mostly, it just says HAPPY BIRTHDAY, and I love you for being there against the better odds. tues jun 10 2003-- tons of stuff! 1st--sidewalk slam!'s site is back up and at a new "addy" ((irresistable brit-speak)). 2nd-- CLICK HERE. now, because i said so. fri jun 5 or 6 2003-- 1. i just found out denison marrs is also christian. they were one of the few bands i thought were my "non-christian" tracks. sign me up for cornerstone, i guess... 2. my birthday is on tuesday. i get to drive. i get to work. i get to listen to "i'll show the world" by calibretto 13 only this time, i get to mean it. 3. i should be in school right now. but i'm not. 4. got some great ohio turnpike pics, and some pictures from my friend marie's party. they probably won't ever be up because i'm real lazy, but i'll ge to it...someday. 5. the mail's here. i'll be back. fri may 30 2003-- Yoh, i can't stray very far. today, on this my day off, i was toying with the idea of completely redoing the entire layout all html-style. maybe throw in some java, who the hell cares, right? no one actually frets over this. watashi wa has served me well, but there has been some mistakes whether this was the official watashi wa site or something. sorry to say, it isn't. what else, what else...i added some extra links for no good reason. there's some pictures *coming soon* you know how that goes. i think all i have up is the thumbnail shots of burke days. i haven't taken pictures in a good year. when i get the full stuff up (likely: never) i'll credit it all to the right people and good stuff of that sort. other than that, i've completely run out of menial topics to discuss. isn't that heartbreaking? well, i'm sure there's worse. mon may 19 2003-- "my favorite song"-- you could be my favorite song, the way you stuck with me so long. your melody's catching me, i'm humming your name when i'm driving. if the radio picked up on your tune, no doubt you'd be a big hit soon. i'd be requesting you, my favorite song. now i know you're my favorite tune, and i hope i hear it again real soon. your name stuck in my head, it's a beat that i can't shed. i'd make all my friends a tape, so they could hear, and know how great you are, you are, you are my favorite song. not so fast, but not too slow. i could get used to your tempo. we could sing it in harmony. i back up and you sing lead. 'cause i don't want to change it all that much. i'd hate to ruin it with my touch, my favorite song. a good dose of emo after an emotionally tolling weekend. i apologize, but that is who i am, and there's not much i can do to change that. amazing: titled -- january the 7th, this day and the last /this side you've never seen -- .thedecemberdrive can a mouse kill a man -- generic four ply i saw you -- the local scene memory -- the secret band eye of a tragedy -- evan's road one day i'll stop breathing -- the contingency plan entrusting -- holdfast welcome and goodbye -- from ithaca this is silence -- color blind light i am holden caulfield -- the contingency plan the four year sleep -- drivelikejune when i'm with you, i'm ok -- ultimate fakebook snowing in october -- mercutios insults screaming to the northern lights -- one breath winter sky constellations -- arms of orion our summer, highland falls -- races to april we live once -- not long after driving blind in the pouring rain -- light the fuse and run by the first star we see tonight -- fall semester your favorite expression -- the last chance diaries maybe we should run -- brand new disaster mixed emotions -- alli with an i you've been shopping at the emo dep't -- treephort is this life? -- sunday best pictures are fading -- the love letter refuge i hope you die -- the unspoken truth seven knives for seven sins -- fragile once hell, now heaven -- stephen christian watch out for what you wish for -- pointswest summer lies -- signature escape my rememberance as julius ceaser -- one breath *so...that nicely sums up how i'm feeling. yet, it goes unnoticed anyway, so i just wasted all that time when i should be figuring out my intro for my term paper. fuck it, i am screwed. but that is how i feel. fri may 16 2003-- ((as always...to the boy on west elm & third)) --lyndsay diaries -- mixtapes and memories -- i promise this won't be another song about being alone but all i feel is regret and i can't find the nerve to pick up the telephone. i was thinking about how it drives my crazy just to feel your hand in mine, and how simple that is and i've thought about saying no to hope but i have this funny habit of putting pictures up on the wall of you and me. i know that priorities never understand reality and time never lends itself to those who are waiting on love. but it is overdue that we should share this night of grace, your smile is the only thing that keeps me breathing. the hours pass like minutes when i'm with you. the hours pass like minutes in the rain. so lets stand her in the rain together. things you should do now: *listen to the lyndsay diaries, or best yet, buy his new cd "remember the memories" because it's sweet, addictive, lovable, and nostalgic. *take a vote: are stage names cool? or should they stick with their birth monikers? scott windsor -- the lyndsay diaries conor oberst -- bright eyes chris carabba -- dashboard confessional bill e. beckett -- remember maine (+ more, coming soon) thurs may 15 2003-- reasons why this day (of all days) rocks: 1. ace is that close. he's here. god that kid is too damn cool. 2. early november is playing at club crannel with count the stars and *hidden in plain view*. 3. conan o'brien is doing his entire episode in "clay animation"...not to be confused with claymation 4. it's chapstic, and chapped lips, and things like chemistry. 5. i am going to albany, for guys in yamakas...well, yeah. 6. the season finales of friends and will & grace are tonight. (however, i missed the season premiers, and in fact, the ENTIRE seasons.) so, i lose. 7. a candidate for class presidency (or vice, i forget) vowed that if he took office, he would never let a vending machine fall on us. that being his entire campaign. nextly, you are going to get a blurty and you are going to join: toothandnail // watashi wa and of course, everyone should dL/watch the much-talked about reggie and the full effect video "congratulations smack and katy." fri may 8 2003--still schooless title--untitled (just a jumble of songs i burned to disc to get off my harddrive) 01 girl's not gray -- afi 02 heartache -- sidewalk slam 03 salad days -- minor threat 04 i remember you -- the ataris 05 they wanted earth -- slow gherkin 06 the honor system -- the blaming game 07 hey what time is "pensacola - wings of gold" on anyway? -- the lawrence arms 08 my mess -- tuesday 09 favorite song -- dan potthast 10 ripping apart -- fairlanes 11 farewell to friends -- matchbook romance 12 the bartender -- dieradiodie 13 any way you want it -- journey 14 plucked -- something corporate 15 forget december -- something corporate 16 grand theft autumn (millenium dance mix) -- fall out boy 17 firefly -- saves the day 18 anyone but you -- rx bandits 19 dead on arrival -- fall out boy 20 fun days in the 8th grade -- all rights reserved 21 have it all -- ace troubleshooter 22 i never said i was brave -- mewithoutYou 23 this is the best day ever -- my chemical romance *incredibly addictive* 16 (of course, it's a great song), 4, 9, 18, 1, 17, + thurs may ? 2003-- get well soon danielle and erik and sister. mon may 5 2003--(thanks to anyone whom i asked for the date) the latest...a lot of macgyver and wester, but even journey makes a guest appearence title--where hearts go to die 01 the rocker -- few and far between 02 plainview -- macgyver 03 the race -- the recieving ends of sirens 04 aimless endeavor -- beloved 05 seeing is believing -- acceptance 06 again i've written tragedy -- wester 07 fall -- over it 08 distance -- riding bikes 09 all i want -- streets of autumn 10 to the floor -- macgyver 11 six chamber romance -- wester 12 the lover and the liar -- the chiodos brothers 13 drift away -- the better half 14 a good day for heroes -- macgyver 15 where hearts go to die -- wester 16 hearts and hands -- destroy the plot 17 my argument precedes me -- up up down down left right left right a b start ((yes a band, yes also an ataris song)) 18 to say something that means something that means nothing to anyone at all -- moneen *!* bonus tracks *!* the bartender --dieradiodie & any way you want it -- journey sat may 3 2003 -- andy. mixtape // dorkrock fri may 2 2003-- dude, huge thank's millions. there's been 311 (exactly, at this moment in time) people/computers who have logged onto this site. furtherly, that's over 1,665 unique page views in the past month. this rocks my socks way past fullerton. now of course at the moment you may be all "oh, bah, i've had 5,345,453 hits in the past minute...you suck." and i do suck, but who cares, if you know me...well that's like a milestone. in the celebratory spirit, i decided to finally start working on the whole mixtape/dorkrock aspect of this...whatever you want to call it. mixtape, dL some songs...or don't. dorkrock., check out some bands...or don't. if you notice, none of the links are all too active, but...i'm lazy and it's late. deal with it, i guess. SENSES FAIL<dude, let me just say for the record, they are INCREDIBLE live. absolutely, take-my-breath-away, leave my heart beating just relistening to their song. so you can bet tommorow will be an encore for the beautiful melodies. you betcha. sun apr 27 2003-- title--the love of the lovely. ((4.26.03)) high 5--calibretto 13 summer of '69--mxpx you are not my friend--frenzal rhomb kiss goodnight--ace troubleshooter right behind me--count the stars sally--cactus punch heroine--something corporate one eigh seven--senses fail gentleman--mewithoutYou a perfect sonnet--bright eyes sha sha--ben kweller the ground folds--senses fail be rad--relient k babies of the 80's--something corporate 1 corinthians 13--ace troubleshooter and high 5 again, because i'm a fuckup. thurs apr 24 2003-- uhm...i updated the links list, i guess. marie found a real hottie...check him out. (yeah, marie, my fellow finch-goer below. IM her, she's a real cool comrade.) anyway this weekend should rock my socks seven ways to sunday. if not, well then, i can always listening to some soco and drown in my own confusion. what would jesus do? sat apr 12 2003-- finch will be doing there thing on saturday with snapcase. mewithoutYou238j: finch on saturday? MarieB975: yes! (the kind of response everyone loves) mewithoutYou238j: damn straight MarieB975: you going? mewithoutYou238j: is that a rhetorical question? i'll be there MarieB975: hahah yay mewithoutYou238j: i feel excitement already MarieB975: haha hells yeah MarieB975: i think my dad can drive us both ways mewithoutYou238j: mad rad i ignore the fact that marie used the term "hells yeah" and that i used the word "mad", out of elation and general feel-goodness. thurs apr 10 2003-- so it was jeremy in 1983 in his ocean pacific tee who got a bloody knee on his skateboard in the halfpipe in his backyard that tuesday night. sun april 6, 2003 -- watashi wa rocked my socks seven ways to sunday last night. dude, there are no words to describe this band...amazingly amazing doesn't begin to do them justice. i think i may have had a heart attack ((from all the incessent gasping, perhaps)). anyone who hasn't yet, check them out. their new cd ((love of life)) comes out june 24, and their ep is out now...that's all i have to say. this is my one last chance to make things better, i'm running out of clever things to say, clever things to say. respective lines are drawn and i can't pass them. i guess i wasn't meant to see outside of my own view. --long since forgotten "some sort of meaning" dL now off of mp3.com tues, april 1, 2003 -- first off, i hate april fools. me and an unnamed friend (we'll call him lame-as-hell) got into a debate...i say that no matter what, ben kweller has the ability to cheer one up when they're in that really weird depressing state, but lame-as-hell claims bk puts the people into that mood and then gets them out of it. he think there's a catch to melodic power-pop. (dubbed "emo" by some.) anyway...i don't know how the hell to explain it. i guess i just can't. sha doo. lastly go to songmeanings. it's a kickass site if i ever saw one. mon, march 31, 2003 -- club static can do what club culture can't: they can book damn good shows. ((need i mention saturday?)) tues apr 1 -- armor for sleep w/ goodwill, northstar, postcard memoirs, denver in dallas *!*sat apr 5 -- tokyo rose w/ copperpot, watashi wa, copeland, rydia, a certain something wed apr 16 -- the beautiful mistake w/ brazil, feeling left out, evening for roses thurs apr 17 -- plain white t's w/ mae, army of me, ash return, never*ending wed apr 30 -- junction 18 w/ goodwill, unsung zeros, bayside, obstruction of you thursday, march 27, 2003--((ujournal's back up)) //you asked for some emo, so here it is... "as soon as beauty dies" --dieradiodie "worst part" --breaking pangaea "viva la resistence" --say from charms "too much too long" --postbreak tragedy "last train" --north of san diego "the hunt club" --remember maine "the blue period" -- beloved (nc) "that's no moon. it's a space station" --say from charms "superstitions in travel" --elliot "some sort of meanin" --long since forgotten "night outside" --madison "red light pledge" silverstein "night of a lifetime" --madison prep "lover left you bleeding" --dieradiodie "harry and dan-o paint the town" --strike.fire.fall "kiss it goodbye" --beloved "ask a stupid question..." --days in december "eulogy for a fallen star" --strafford "goodnight kiss" --the prize fight "better late than never" --counterfit "letting go" --north of san diego "it drowns in whispers" --stafford "londen we deserve everything" --ettison clio "bleeds no more" --silverstein "creative suicide" --all that's left "falling far behind" --the junior varsity "fist full of plagues" --noise ratchet "knows my name" --days away "if kenneth could speak" --the june spirit wednesday, march 26, 2003 -- yeah ujournal's busted, i noticed, in my hour of keyboarding. tonight i have to do...16 religion assignments, plus two essays and research, 11 earth sci labs, and 7 global journals, as well as all the normal homework. anyone feeling scholastic? monday, march 24, 2003-- a couple things-- 1) i started the "you" section, which is to be a collection of memories. in response, no one cares. 2) the photography section is a mix of edited photos (creations of amatuer photoshop knowledge and boredom) of friends and lyrics, most of the time which have nothing to do with said photo. if you have had a "lyricpic" sent to you via email, forward it here if you want to see it on the site. yeah. 3) i don't know if you noticed, but the navigation sucks. this is mostly because i don't give a shit about it because i'm not a webdesigner. also, if your browser is 800x600, it's even shittier. imagine that. and finally... dressed to protest saturday, march 22, 2003 -- i was randomly wandering around town today and i came across one of those decorative flags housy people wave outside their houses. this one read "spring has sprung!" and that it has. that means: warm weather, watashi wa shows at teen clubs in monroe (better then no show at all), clamdiggers, the android family back in all their glory, the clan of skateboarders attacking the streets again, and wandering aimlessly around a pointless town. and yet also, it somehow means war. and as i watch in 8th period spanish class the boys that surround me go "yes! look at that! oh shit!" everytime our hick country drops a bomb. and the only thing i can think about is those "civilians" and our "military" and the many "casualties." and everytime i hear these words i feel a little less connected to what i knew yesterday. |
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