I never loved the rain, I didn’t love my friend, I had no love for myself, I didn’t know love, before I met You.   My life was meaningless, a deep and dark abyss; I woke from each night dreading every day. Imprisoned by no person, I was confined by myself. It was I who You would save me from.   Until I met You, I chased pleasure like a dog chases its tail. Before I met You, I longed to be free anger, but knew only one escape. Without You I had no purpose; a void was consuming me. Life’s answer was stretching its arm, yet I knew only one way. Before You I had no relief, thank God for Your release. You put Your finger on my chin to lift my eye to Him. The blinding darkness no longer my focus, I saw light; I saw life.   It happened one night after a play. A man announced an alter call, but it wasn’t He who spoke my call. My conscience shouted louder than ever. My heart thumped in rage, trying to drag me there with its finest. As if it were trying to leap out of my chest, it tried its best. But my shoes didn’t speak the same language. They listened to my anxiety. They wouldn’t have moved less if bound in concrete. This battle of heart against will left me weak. My knees shook, my palms sweat cold clinching what they could. As if it were too late, I hear “lets pray.” To give up never crossed my mind. I closed my eyes, then prayed; I finally met You. Thank You for forgiving me. I found You the Way. I see You the Truth. I feel You the Life.   I never loved the rain until I walked through it with You; I didn’t love my friends until I hung with them and You; I had no love for myself until I heard You love me; I didn’t know love until I saw love in You. © 2004 Kai Napohaku