Chapter 45

It was nearing the end of term, and Andi was surprisingly not getting stressed about the end of term play, which she normally did. Although this could have been something to do with the regular sex she was having with Marcus.

Art was fairly relaxed, although very annoyed about the disco which Ariadne had organised, and how homophobic it was going to be. He was also very tired, as teachers get towards the end of term, and he wasn�t getting much sleep, because of Seiji. He was also feeling worried about Eagle and Matt, and whether it would work, and whether Seiji really minded him screwing Eagle or not, and if he did how much. He had decided after nearly a term of it, that being a head of year was too much of an emotional responsibility � or maybe his year were just an emotional mess.

Matt was feeling deliriously happy, he had finally got his Eagle, and it was nearing Christmas. Normally Matt hated Christmas, because his family really didn�t like him, but this year he had been invited to spend the holiday with Eagle and Raven, which he was excited about, as although he normally spent the vast majority of his time at their house, he had never spent Christmas with them.

Eagle was not feeling so happy. He was madly in love with Matt, and feeling enormously guilty about sleeping with Art (although if someone had told him about the whole Matt/Seiji thing, he might have started to feel better about it.) He was also worried about Raven, because although she was growing up, and he accepted that, he had a feeling that Alex was making her grow up too fast.

Raven herself, felt she wasn�t growing up fast enough, she wanted to go further with Alex than Alex would let her. She loved him, and she knew that in her heart, she knew she would never love anyone else, so what was stopping them?

Alex was feeling torn. Raven had been pestering him to have sex for a while now (pretty much since the game of �or� which had introduced her to the idea of blowjobs,) and he just didn�t want to hurt her. To tell the truth, he didn�t feel he was ready, he didn�t feel he was old enough for sex, and it was driving him mad, his body wanted one thing, and his mind wanted another. His heart wanted one thing only � Raven.

Fergie was feeling absolutely shit, and wasn�t going to tell anyone. Marcus was bugging him again, because after that one beautiful night, when he felt he had met the real Marcus for the first time, all he ever heard were little whispers of �You ready yet?� which was bugging him, and he wished he had never told Marcus he even liked him. He was terrified about Christmas. For Fergie Christmas and his birthday were the two worst times of the year. Any presents that arrived addressed to him were quickly rewrapped addressed to Tor, and he had to spend the whole day in his room, alone, unless he was cooking, or having sex with David. He was just beginning to get used to not living every day in fear, and he was going back to it. And worst of all? Tor wasn�t there to hold his hand.

Tor was going through a phase of being totally besotted with Mara, which meant he was ignoring Fergie a little. He was liking spending time with Fergie less and less, because with David not around, Fergie was being more confident, and bubbly, which although Tor loved seeing him happy, made him worry about how awful it was going to be going home again. He just wished they could always stay at school.

Mara was delighted that Tor was ignoring Fergie as she thought the whole twincest thing was disgusting. She did however think Fergie was quite hot in his own right, and so was really pleased that she got to dance with him in the play.

Marcus was being his charming, smarmy, Marcus self. He was madly in love with Fergie, and let the whole world know it. He knew he was annoying him by pestering him, but he just couldn�t leave him alone. He was also becoming fast friends with Ash, delighted by the totally camp and overconfident boy.

Ash was happy. Is Ash anything but happy? He was however slightly jealous of all the attention Fergie was getting from Marcus, because he secretly fancied Marcus, although he knew he would never have a chance, not with Fergie around anyway. He was also being extremely bugged by Toni, who was, as always, all over Marcus.

Toni was feeling angry, upset and alone. She was fed up because she thought that when Marcus came to her school, because she already knew him, they would be special friends, and she would be able to spend loads of time with him. Instead he was totally ignoring her. She was spending more time with Aimee and J, having *cough* fun.

Aimee was settling in to her new school nicely. She already knew which teachers she hated, mainly Art, because he had a habit of calling her by her full name (Chocolate) which she really didn�t appreciate. She was having good fun with J and Toni, but was pissed off that Ally and Mikey were both refusing to sleep with her, just because she�d met Megan at summer camp.

J was moody and hormonal, as always. She couldn�t decide if she was straight or not, and being bi annoyed her. She took out all her anger on Charlie, because he is easy to bully.

Charlie was getting really confused. He thought he was gay, but more and more frequently he found himself not only hating Ally, the love of his life, for being such a prick, but he also found himself thinking how pretty Nienna looked when she smiled, and how she had a really nice laugh. It was annoying him; he thought he was gay�wasn�t he?

Nienna was having a hard time trying to convince Charlie he was straight. She really liked him, ok so with guys like Marcus and Ally around he might not be perceived as the fittest bloke on the planet, but he was really sweet, and once you got to know him he had a really cute sense of humour. She was also trying to make Dee feel at home.

Dee was feeling very homesick. She missed the states, everything in England was different, and they even spoke a different language, which she hadn�t expected. She thought Ally and Mikey were really sweet; she had slept with both of them by now, and with Marcus, who was of course her favourite. But she still left out, and a loner. Everyone else had already made friends before she arrived, and the other two new ones were really good at fitting in. Ash was being really nice to her.

Ally was getting in an absolute tizzy. He was the straightest bloke on the planet, he hated all gays, it was wrong and sick, and yet more and more he found his thoughts turning to Mikey. There had been that failed threesome with Aimee, which had ended up with the two of them getting off with each other. And then Mike had gone and made him suck him off, which wasn�t actually that bad, he�d actually found it quite sexy. He was confused, and annoyed that the girls were teasing him about Baloo, the only one who understood was Mikey, and again his thoughts were turning back to Mike.

Mikey was in love. He�d suspected it pretty much from September, and had had a really hard time trying to accept it, which he�d kept to himself. But now there was no denying it, he was in love with Ally, the most gorgeous guy on the planet.

It was now the last week of term, and as always the last week of term was very action packed. Monday involved Art giving a little exhibition of all of their work. Including Seiji�s beautiful, and now finished, picture of him. Tuesday was play rehearsals all day. Wednesday was the day of the disco, and what fun that was going to be, all the lower sixth were in a sick and sadistic way looking forward to ruining it. Thursday was the night of the play, which everyone was beginning to get a little nervous about, except for Mara, who claimed not to get stage nerves, and Marcus, who genuinely didn�t get stage nerves. Friday was the official last day of term, which it was kind of acknowledged that they�d all go for a drink in the evening. Everyone was going home on Saturday, it was nearly Christmas.

�Right guys,� Art said to the combined lower and upper sixth as they stood outside the Art room. �I am pleased to present to you our gallery of portraits.� He laughed and opened the door.

They wandered through the art room, looking at all the pictures that had been put up. The most impressive, was of course, Seiji�s. Art lying in the sunlight, curtains blowing slightly open. Raven�s was an absolutely gorgeous painting of Alex, sat underneath a tree, sunlight on his hair, grinning and reaching out, as if to touch the person who was drawing. Alex himself had not actually drawn Raven, but instead drawn a fairy, who looked an awful lot like her. The twins had actually done different pictures, Tor just a fairly ordinary picture of Fergie, although he was covered in bruises. Fergie�s picture was particularly disturbing, it was a picture of Tor, smiling, with David and their mum stood behind him, and Kathy and Frankie on either side, with the title � �A perfect family.� The rest were fairly ordinary, as expected. Eagle and Matt�s were both very sweet, and so obviously in love it was unbelievable.

Tuesday was the most hectic day ever. Despite spending most of the day with Marcus�s arms around her, trying to calm her, Andi was still extremely stressed. This also wasn�t good for the rest of the cast; all the girls were getting jealous of Andi, because of all the attention Marcus was giving her; all the boys were pissed off with Marcus for being so open about the fact he was screwing a teacher, plus Andi was sort of hot, and they wished they had the courage. And Fergie was very jealous. Ever since that night, he�d started to get jealous whenever he saw Marcus with anyone else, which of course was totally illogical, because he didn�t like Marcus, or did he? He was just confused.

It was Wednesday evening, and everyone in the upper sixth, apart from Eagle and Elliot, were getting ready for the disco. Even Ash was shocked at the effort they were all putting into their outfits, and normally Ash would be the one to put the most effort in. The girls were all, if not in ball gowns, at least in cocktail dresses, not a single one wearing trousers. The boys were all in suits, a few of them even wearing bow ties, not a single one just in jeans and a shirt.

Art burst into the lower sixth dorm in hysterics. He slammed the door shut, and giggling, sat down in front of it. �Have you seen how much they care?� he asked, �How much it means to them?�

�We are going to smash their little party to pieces.� Elliot grinned. He�d been beginning to hate his year more and more, since they were getting meaner and meaner to him.

�This is so evil!� Dee squealed.

�If you knew what they had done.� Matt sighed, slipping his arms back into their usual place around Eagle�s waist, �What they had done to my poor baby.�

Tor mimed throwing up at his brother, �Yuk.� He laughed, �Could you be any more sickly sweet?�

�You�re just jealous,� Eagle laughed, �Because you haven�t got Matt.�

�And that would make him jealous why?� Fergie grinned, wandering over and sitting on his brother�s lap. �He has me!�

�Which would make anyone jealous.� Marcus grinned as he walked back into the room, doing up his tie. �Can I please go to this disco thing naked? It would make life so much more interesting.�

�No.� Art laughed, �Although you�re right it would.�

A few hours later, the upper sixth were all processing down to the hall, where the music was already blaring loudly, and the lights were on, balloons strewn around the floor, streamers on the walls. They really had put too much effort into it.

�Right,� Art grinned at the lower sixth as they stood, gathered in the smaller dorm, �we�re going to dress down, and be as boring as we can, we just want to kill the mood ok?� he turned to Seiji, �And no killing people.� He laughed.

�If it�s ok,� Ally asked, very politely, �We�re going to have our own party, and just not go.� He grinned evilly at the others. �Which should be laugh.�

�Sure.� Art said, and they filed out. Art turned to Ash, �Can you find some clothes that are just a little bit dull?� he asked, grinning.

Ash nodded, and pulled out a black t-shirt and a pair of jeans.

�Wow!� Raven laughed, �I didn�t even know you had clothes like that!�

Ash laughed. �I don�t wear them.�

A few minutes later they were all dressed, even Raven was in just a pair of jeans and a plain t-shirt. Seiji of course looked the most menacing. He�d put his work clothes on, that is, his blacks, and all his knives. �Just in case the mood needs any help in dieing.� He grinned.

Marcus laughed, �And if it wants the other kind of dieing, I�m sure I can help.�

They wandered downstairs and across the car park to the hall, no-one talking to anyone else, they were trying to be sober and boring. As they walked into the hall, Ariadne was trying to get everyone dancing, and she was mostly succeeding. The upper sixth were dancing, very badly, but it could almost have been called dancing.

�Oh Hello!� she squealed, trying to be cheerful, but obviously disappointed at the outfits of the lower sixth, �Come and dance!�

Seiji raised one eyebrow at her, and shook his head. Turning and walking away, sitting down in the corner.

She walked over to Marcus, reaching out a hand to touch his shoulder, �Marcus, gorgeous, you�ll come and dance?�

Marcus shrugged away from her, �Don�t touch me.� He scowled, walking away from her, and out of the fire escape door that was open. He walked out into the courtyard, and sat down on the ground, in the cold December air. Taking something out of his jacket pocket, he started to roll a spliff

Upstairs, Ally had led the others back into their dorm. �Right,� he grinned, �We have a game to play.�

�We do?� Charlie asked a little scared, �Why have I been forced to play?�

Ally shrugged, �Don�t take it personally; we need an even number of people. Mike�ll explain.� He said, and walked around the dorm, pulling the curtains shut, that, were in true boarding school style, like blackout blinds, and not a single beam of light got through.

�Right, basically,� Mikey laughed, �It�s a bit like blind man�s bluff, except the lights are out, and no-one can see what they�re doing. Ok?�

J nodded, �Sounds fun,� she muttered sarcastically.

�It�s more than that. Everyone is trying to catch everyone else. And when you catch someone you have to, erm�well, you do whatever you want really. Neither of you are allowed to protest, nor are you allowed to say who you are.�

Aimee started to giggle, �This sounds fun.�

�And the aim of the game,� Ally laughed, �Is to get everyone naked by the end of it.� He flicked the lights out.

Ally had been stumbling around for a few minutes, breathless kisses, combined with laughter, and a few badly behaved hands, when all of a sudden he felt strong hands grab his waist and pull him closer. He felt gentle breathing on his neck, and spun around. He felt a gentle hand under his chin, lifting his face up, and soft lips, brushing against his, barely a kiss, but breathtakingly sweet all the same.

�Mikey,� he breathed softly.

�Shhh,� Mikey whispered in his ear, �We�re not supposed to say who is who.�

He could tell Mikey was laughing. Ally felt Mikey�s hands slipping under his t-shirt, tugging it over his head. �Trying to get me naked?� he asked.

Mikey grinned in the darkness, �Of course.� He felt Ally�s ands reaching for the buttons of his shirt, and felt himself relax ever so slightly, in absolute heaven, here he was undressing the most gorgeous bloke on the planet.

Ally froze as he felt Mikey�s hands sliding downwards, fumbling with the stiff button on his jeans. He glanced up at Mikey, and in the dark, could just see his naughty grin. This was a game; he was testing him, to see how far he would go. Ally felt himself shiver, and to his horror, harden. This could be quite fun.

Mikey felt Ally growing hard beneath his hand, and smiled to himself, continuing to undo the other boy�s trousers.

Ally himself reached for the top of Mikey�s jeans, two could play at this game, and was surprised to feel his friend�s erection already there.

Charlie squealed as J, Toni and Aimee pounced on him. He had been hiding on his bed, hoping they wouldn�t find him.

�Hey Charlie,� J grinned, �We wanna play.�

�Um, uh,� Charlie stuttered, afraid. �But I�m gay.�

Aimee laughed, �There is no way in hell you are gay boy. Just accept it.�

Toni laughed, slipping his t-shirt off, �And we are about to prove it.�

From the corner of the room they heard a soft moan, and everyone turned the stare. �The hell?� J whispered softly, for over in the corner of the room, Mikey stood, leaning against the wall, holding Ally close with one hand, the other gripping their erections together.

�Now that.� Aimee whispered to Charlie, letting her lips brush against his ear, �Is gay.�

It was getting late, and the disco had, as predicted, completely and utterly flopped. Fergie slipped outside. He was feeling low, and scared, he didn�t want to go home for Christmas, there was no hope of seeing Rory, to cheer him up, he probably wouldn�t leave the house in the whole holiday. He slunk down the wall and sat down next to Marcus.

Marcus turned to his crush, and smiled faintly, �Scared?� he asked.

Fergie nodded.

�Surprisingly, I understand. All I can say is, you�ll be coming back to school in January, if that�s any consolation.� He held the spliff to Fergie�s lips, �And this will help.�

Fergie sighed, and then gave in, and took a breath. He leant his head against Marcus�s shoulder as Marcus slipped an arm around his shoulder, and the faint sounds of the disco floated through the door.

He�s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He�s never enough
And still he's more than I can take

Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what is after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster