Chapter 15

Satu walked into the PSHE lesson on wednesday morning swearing, "Fucking whore, I hate that fucking bitch."

"What's the matter?" Ally asked

"Stupid fucking cunt bitch."

"Who?"

Satu scowled, "Our stupid fucking bitch of a writer always forgets me."

Art pulled Seiji onto his lap as they all sat in the circle. He glanced up at the doorway, to see Eagle standing there. "Hey Eagle, shouldn't you be doing special prefecty stuff, in the prefects study." he sniggered, "Fun fun fun."

Eagle scowled, "They kicked me out."

"Come join our lesson," Raven beamed at her big brother, "please."

Eagle shook his head, and, grinning, went to sit in the circle.

Seiji instinctivly snuggled closer to Art, putting his arms around his waist. "Mine." he mouthed.

"You're too possesive," Art laughed at him, but kissed him all the same.

Ally and Mikey braced themselves for another totally strange lesson.

At the end of the lesson, Art grinned at them, "You're properly settled in now, so I thought I'd give you some prep*" he laughed at their downcast faces. "It's not too bad. I've assigned you all days, and on that day, I want you to write a diary. I want you to write exactly what you are feeling, and be honest, no-one will see this if you don't want them too, okay? You just have to write it, and I'll collect them all in next wednesday. I'm gonna write one too, and" He grinned at Eagle, "He doesn't know this yet, but Eagle will too."

"What!" Eagle squealed, "You didn't tell me."

Art laughed, and handed out the sheet with everyone's assigned days on, and the assignment began.

Wednesday

Alex

Uh, this is a diary thingie. It's really weird, because I've never written a diary before, and so I don't really know what to write. Can I write about Raven? I guess so. I'm getting really obsessed with her, she's really beautiful though, and I love the way she smiles. Do you think I'm meant to write about what happened today? Uh, we had another drama lesson. The drama teacher (I can't remember her name) said that next week she'd give us our parts. Raven says she can't act, but I think she can. Also I saw some of the drawings she did today, she's so good. Raven just smiled at me across the desk, but uh oh, Eagle's glaring at me now. I don't think he likes me liking Raven. I think he's really overprotective, I know she gets really annoyed about it, she told me so yesterday. I asked her out yesterday, and she said yes, but we have to keep it a secret, so Eagle doesn't rip my spleen out. Eagle and Raven, they're quite weird names, aren't they? I think Raven is a pretty name, and suits her because of her hair. Well, that's my little Ravenness, you did ask me to write what I'm feeling. I love her. Other things in our year, today I think Seiji is getting more pissed off with Eagle, because of the whole Eagle/Art thing. Also I noticed a new cut on the back of his hand, but I'm sure it was just a scratch, I'm not really sure though. Is this enough? I don't know. I guess so.

Ash

Oooh A DIARY!!!!!!!! I love writing in my diary!!!! This isn't going to be ANYTHING like my diary though. Oh no. I'm thinking about getting my ear's periced, what do you think?????????? Oh wait, you're a peice of paper! *laughs* I'm so dumb!!!! I noticed Seiji has holes in his ears where his earings should be, but LOADS in each ear!!! I think it looks really cool. I think our year is really weird. I can't really think of anything to write. I didn't really do much today. OOOH! YES I DID!!!! Well, I say today, I mean last night, I had a REALLY RANDOM DREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think I was in it, and Alex was, and that boy Charlie, and Raven and Mara. It was MEGA twisted, and REALLY PINK!!! Everyone got covered in pink bubblegum, which must have been really messy. It was quite fun though. Anyway, not much else to report. I think I can see Alex doing his diary. I bet it's all about Raven.
Night Night Diary
Ashley
xxx

J

Ohmygod. This is such a stupid idea. I fucking hate this fucking thing. Screwed Ally at lunch today. I still reckon Mikey is better. We get our Midsummer Nights Dream parts next week, I bet I get something really good like Titania, or Helena or Hermia. Miss whatsherface says some of the upper sixth are coming to help. I heard that the two boys (Thomas and Phillip????) are REALLY cute. That could be fun. Anyway, I can't be bothered to write more.
J

Thursday

Art

Okay, I agreed to do this stupid thing, so here goes:
I feel awful, I'm being such a bastard to Seiji. He spent all of this evening talking to Amber on the phone....my SISTER of all people. I think he's really pissed off with me. But I also feel so bad for Eagle. Matt's being a real prick, and Eagle's really upset. I swear he cried himself to sleep last night. I can't think of any other way to make Eagle feel better, other than screwing him. Which is really bad, because it's breaking up my relationship with Seiji. I love Seiji, he means more to me than anything in this world, I just wish he'd cheer up a bit. I guess I'm so focused on getting Eagle to cheer up, I forget about Seij.
FUCK
This is so messed up. And so now I'm sitting here, after lights out, in my bed, alone. I hate being alone, I always feel as if no-one loves me...does that make me insecure? I guess. Anyway, so I'm sitting here, writing this stupid thing. And all I can think about is Seiji, and how much I want him right now, and how I know for a fact he's probably talking to my sister. I susperct something between Seij and Amber, but I'm not going to say anything, cause I love them both to peices.
I didn't say how much we had to write, did I? Dammit. I think I'm a really crap teacher. Why the fuck do I teach, because I have nothing better to do? I always think this, and then something comes up, like Eagle does a fantastic drawing, and then I realise I love teaching.
Right, well, I'm going to go and beg Seiji for forgiveness now, I hope he doesn't make me attack him again. I love him so much, I hate seeing him down. I just wanna give him a huge hug. That's what I'm gonna go do, hug Seiji.

Matt

My year hate me. Eagle hates me. Raven hates me. I hate me. I feel so bad about sucking up to Ariadne. I love her so much though. When she smiles, it's like the whole world seems sunny, I know it sounds cliched, but it really does, she's beautiful. I wish there was some way of being able to go out with Ariadne, and still be best mates with Eagle. I swear if I was gay I'd love him to peices. I hate life without him. I had a dream about him last night. It was kinda weird though, because, yeah, well, it was kinda him, and me, as him and me. Weird thing was, I was really enjoying it. Scary huh? Okay, I'm midly more cheeful now. Today the others had riding, which meant a whole afternoon of Ariadne. I could kinda feel Raven's eyes boring holes in my back at some points. Mind you, she was all over that Alex guy. I swear if he breaks her heart I'm gonna break him.
Anyway.

Eagle

I dont no why Art mad me do this. He nos I hate riting.
I lov Mat. Today I saw him with Ari...... Aryad.... that gril. He was smilling, and so I didn't mind, becose I lik it when he smils. Phillip loked me in the perfects study today. I didn't tel anybody. I wich I culd tel Art. Art cheres me up, but I no it maks Seiji sad. I wich lif was simpel.

Friday

Satu

I'm annoyed, because the writer keeps on forgetting I exsist. I emailed little brother mokie today, he emailed back really quickly. I swear he sits there waiting for me to email him. I also found a really hot new site. *grins* Nothing much happened, it was friday. We did running races in P.E. I won, suprise suprise. Also in gym we did balances, which is really boring. Maths was really easy, it always is. Anyway, thats enough now, right?

Toni

Blah blah blah. Did violin practise. Screwed Mikey. Fooled around a bit with J, I think Mikey and Ally enjoyed that one. Didn't do much else.

Seiji.

FUCK!
I had a fight with Art.
It's not so good, I feel really really bad, because I can't live without him. It's because I spent most of the day on the phone to Amber. She tells me she can't live without seeing me. I laughed. I hope I didn't upset her, I don't think life without Art AND Amber is worth living. Art took my blades away in gym today. I still managed loads of stuff though, I just feel really insecure without them. I feel really insecure without him. It was really sweet last night, he just came in to our dorm and gave me a huge hug. I wish we didn't fight so much. I guess it's always my fault when we fight, because he doesn't fight with Eagle. I know I upset him, and I try really hard not to. I know when I'm doing it, I'm such a bastard to him. He's really nice to me though. He forcefed me a chocolate bar today. I was sick afterwards, I couldn't bear the thought of that thing inside me. I didn't tell anyone.
Art's looking at me. He's mouthing something. "Sorry," oh, and "Sex?" I can read that one pretty well now. Well, I guess we're not fighting anymore. I better go.
SFY

Saturday

Charlie

It was quite weird. Nienna was really nice to me today, she asked me to be her partner in P.E. and she came into town with me. She's a really nice person, I had such a good chat with her. She said she thought I was cute. I told her about the whole Ally thing, and she said she didn't beleive I was gay. I am. But she said that I only thought I was gay, and it was just a phase. I don't know what she's on about though. Last night J, Toni, Ally and Mikey had an orgy in our room. I just hid under my blanket, it wasn't nice to watch. Anyway, can't think of much else. Charlie

Fergie.

Today was not a good day. All afternoon Tor buggered off with Mara. Seiji was screwing Art. Pretty much everyone had gone into town. I was left all on my own. Wrote a new song though, it's called "He doesn't know" It's really stupid and romantic though. I wish Tor did know how much I love him. I think it's kinda wrong that he's my brother though. Mind you, he is bloody good in bed. What really annoys me, is that when other people are around he acts like it's always me forcing him to sleep with me, whereas at home it's mostly the other way around. I really do miss Ireland, and I miss Mam. England is so different, it's less friendly here. (well, in a certain way XD) I miss being able to act like Tor. I don't think people here realise how similar we normally are, I just act really different here, so people can tell us apart. It's really weird not being him. I wish I was him I think he's perfect.

Sunday

Ally

Ugh, Mass today. Was really boring. Sat next to Mikey. We were mucking around, playing the game where you slide your hand up the other guys leg saying "Nervous yet?" only saying it really quietly, obviously, we were meant to be listening. I won, seeing as he was practically feeling me up by the end. Was quite weird as I felt really comfortable with it. I guess its just cause we're really good mates.
Screwed Toni. Was fun.

Nienna

Charlie was really sweet and sat next to me in Mass today. He think's he's gay, but I don't think he is, I think he's just confused. (I also think he's REALLY hot!) Maybe I'll ask him out. I don't know though, because he seems really shy, and really hung up about Ally. Btw Mr Art, if you are reading this, which I expect you are, I think it's a really good idea this diary thing, and I bet some of the others are really rude about it, but I think it's a great idea. Mara seems to spend all her time with Tor, which upsets Fergie no end. I'd be really scared if I were her, I can't tell them apart, but I guess she just trusts them. Eagle is really upset aswell at the moment, I think he's in love with Matt, but can't admitt it to him, and then Matt is being really mean to him, but I don't think Matt is enjoying being mean to him. Seiji's cheering up a bit now though, because Art is spending more time with him. Alex and Raven are being really sweet together, they're totally head over heels in love with each other. I couldn't survive without Ashleykins, it's nice to have a girly chat now and again, even if he isn't really a girl! I don't really know the other's that well, but I hope I will soon.
Nienna
xxx

Monday

Mikey

Art today, was scary as always. We just sat and did the talky thing again. I was with Satu, who seems a bit weird. I think he's insane, he just keeps blabbering on about this writer person. It's quite scary. J was hitting on me AGAIN, I really don't think she's hot. Infact, the most interesting thing was a pillow fight with Ally. Not much else.

Mara

Did some more pointe work at lunch time today. Didn't manage to do any after school, was screwing Tor. He's so gorgeous, I don't know how, but he manages to be so much more hot than Fergie, that's weird, isn't it? Anyway, I think he's really cute. I'm not going to go so far as to say I love him, but he's certainly the hottest guy I've slept with in a while. Dance at lunch was really fun, seeing as me and Tor got to do some lifts at the end, he's so strong, just like his accent. I love his voice, it's absolutly gorgeous. Fergie says Tor's really good at singing, but he wont sing for me, Someday I'll get him to.
Love
Mara
xxx

Tuesday

Torin

Right, well, this diary thing. I actually forgot, until Ferg reminded me. Whatever would I do without him. I don't really get how normal people can cope being only one person, I'd never remember anything, or get round to doing anything, cept Mara of course. Now she is hot. I really like her seriously though, not just for her looks, she's a really sweet kid, fantastic dancer aswell. I watched her all day today, she only ate a peice of toast and some salad. I recon from that she's probably anorexic, so I'm gonna make sure she doesn't get too skinny. For a change I screwed Fergal last night, which was rather nice, as always. I love him loads, I don't think he quite understand how much I love him, but I do. It's twisted, because we're so similar, but I guess it's ok, because we do love each other, and not just like brothers either XD. Anyhow, enough of the love life. School was alright. I guess. Dancing was good, always is. Oh shit, Ferg's crying again, and he sounds geniune, better go see what it is.
Tor

Raven

Dear Diary

Today I held Alex's hand all the way through Assembly. I think Eagle noticed because he didn't look very pleased. I wish he'd just let me get on with my life, it's really sweet that he's so protective, but sometimes I get really annoyed with it, because I just want him to be happy for me. Matt was being a complete bastard to him, but I can't bring myself to hate him, because I know how much Eagle loves him, and I love him too (as a friend), I guess he's just confused at the moment, because in all honesty he doesn't look very happy. Anyway. gotta hand this in tomorrow. Well well well, the diary finale. So, I think I'm the last person to be writing, as Tor who's on the same day as me, has just put his pen down to go and screw his brother XP. So I'll say goodnight then.
Night
Love
Raven
xxx