The despair inside has been awakened By the rush of blood flooding my veins A silent blade shatters my veins of glass The crimson pours rapidly through my heart My wounds are mutely crying red tears of misery Like a ghost, this agony moves through my aching body And I'm tearing at pain that is just pretending to be there Just an act this depression plays with my foolish mind This deceit decrypted by my reliable heart Tries to fight back in this endless disturbing battle It hurts to cry when the tears have been flushed out It hurts to smile when the smiles have worn out And my picture of life is sometimes distorted By the fear of feeling forlorn and abandoned I just wish I could fall back against the cold windowpane And let the pain slowly fade, slowly fall back asleep Living dormant inside of me for so long, Why did it have to end like this? Why did I have to give in? I've fallen to my knees Loathing the depression that has defeated me Eating at the only object living inside of me, My blackened heart, forever shattered by this pain addiction And I would bleed just for another day of ecstasy I would cry for another day of smiles If only I was strong again. I am eternally [bro\\ken]
