I know what your pain's like, because I live with it everyday. Only in my dreams do I think of you. Holding me when the wind blows in our faces. Let the croud yell. Let the music calm you, and me. As long as you hold me, telling me that you love me, I'll be fine. I don't care what they say about us, we are one. When I'm all alone, sitting by myself, you come out of nowhere. You sit next to me, asking if I'm alright. I turn to you, with a :.f.a.k.e.: smile on my face telling you that I'm fine. But I know that you don't buy it. "You can't fool me with your :.f.a.k.e.: smile. I can see all the fear in your lovely green eyes." Speechless, I turn away, letting a tear fall down. You take my chin with your warm hands and move my head facing your beautiful face. As you wipe away my silver tears, I tell you that I love you, and need you. You look at me like I'm the one for you... I hope I am. In my dreams, I see you there, standing in the cold, wanting love. I'm here, watching every move you make, but you're blind to see that I'm right here, waiting for you to wake up from this Hell and see me, at the golden gates. I know that I'm not on your mind. I know that I don't have a golden heart. I know I'm not your perfect girl.... However, I've been there for you. I was the one who lifted you up. It makes sence that I should be with you and that you should be with me. But you want time by yourself. It may bring me down, it may make me cry, but at least you still talk to me. I don't know why everyday I wake up and go to school. There's no reason. There never was. I'm just hiding from you, and everyone else, like I'm in my own little world. Only in my dreams will you be mine. Only in your dreams do you wish to find the girl of your life. Only.... if only that could happen. You are the reason why I get up every morning. You are the one. But you don't see that, so I'm waiting for you to wake up and see me, because I love you. And care like the others didn't. I won't tease you around, like one did. I'm different, unique. I may be dark, but there is another side of me... my loving side, which is all for you. But if only.... if only you were real.
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