I was sitting here, typing to myself to get some build-up out. Too bad it never works. Too bad nothing ever does. Feeling lonely is always terrible, so why should I? Stand up and be the better person I was always told. Funny how life is. Half face it off- silver tears yet golden smiles. I know I'll never know, but you do.. and won't tell me. Don't think you ever will.. and that's what gets me about you everytime. You're so mysterious, get amazing. You could take my breath away as if snow were flying in the wind. The past two days have been hard, because everyone is happy. They have someone, always. Was it really worth it? My tears for you? Your golden lie? I remember you told me that if it ended, I'd be the first to know. Funny how life is. Half face it off- silver tears yet golden smiles. I know I'll never know, but you do.. and won't tell me. Don't think you ever will.. and that's what gets me about you everytime. I'm still typing to myself sadly, feeling sorry for myself. I wish that you could see your golden lie to me. You told me to believe you, and follow you. I now realize what you said to me. You can't spell believe without the word lie.. So now I'll
11/2/2003
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