I've always been on my own, but everyone has that someone who they can always trust, right? I never saw it comming, your lies you fed me. "You never trusted me!" as you told me that May day. I didn't understand why you didn't want me to know. Fallen trust I call it. After a 3 hour fight, I gave in. Only because I was sick of you screaming for no reason. For a month we shared no words. For a month we both changed. And for a month, we both went our separte ways... I remember the past, we'd always hang out during the day and then at night, you'd tell me what was on your mind. What happened to the boy I used to know? The one who seemed like a real good guy? I thought you were better than what you are now, but I guess what you've been hiding for years is now showing. We use to be able to read eachothers' minds. It felt good knowing that you understood how I felt. All those long and scary nights, where I would talk crazy and you'd talk me out of it, saving me I should put it. I miss it. I miss the good old you. But now in days, it seems that you've moved on, caring more less and less and wanting to be a big shot with all the ladies. I just don't understand why anyone would want to change when they were so great in the past. Maybe it's just me who has to get over the fact that we're not as close as we used to be.. Fallen trust my friend, is what we now have. All that we used to have, is now dead. Because I now know the true you, and you just don't care. So why should I? I don't tell you any of this because who knows how you'll respond.. I don't know you anymore. Everyone has that someone who they can always trust. As my tears run down my face, I feel that our friendship has faded, but some of it is still there. And it doesn't feel real, the kind of real a friendship of trust should feel. I'll be here, if you know where to look for me, my friend....
7/16/2004
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