Maybe For Me

(This entry was edited by usagi on 08-11-01 @ 2:29 am EDT)

This morning I woke up in one of the hottest days of my entire life. 108 degrees with humidity the air was so thick I could not breath. I have been becoming more aware of the fact that IM am extremely energy sensitive. not to mention epathic. its like i can feel the pain and sorrows of others. also i have realized i need to find my center. my friend told me to find the one thing i love in this life the most then surround myself with it. the problem is i love everything i don't really have like #1 favorites so I cant pick just one. IM so grateful for all the things life has to offer from feeted flannel PJ's to Hair Gel. How can one just choose one thing in the entire world. the thing I value most is relationships with people? The interaction, the quarrels, the love, the friendships. This is probably the one thing i would be entirely grateful for. the meeting and the intermingling of others. for without people to converse with i would be truly alone. even though my loneliness over powers me half the time. its chatting with people that makes me forget how lonely i am. for a few moments in a day i am the center of attention in this person or that person lives. this person and that person enjoys my complex mind and enjoys the tune of my voice. Laughs at my corny jokes and embraces me for who I am. whether or not they like me depending on the person. that moment I speak or they speak words that flow from your mouth touch their ears and their minds. Maybe one day I will find someone that adors me this much but as of right now for me there's none.

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