It's Been A While
(This entry was edited by usagi on 08-01-01 @ 11:46 am EDT)
I woke up this morning feeling the lowest I have felt in a real long time. For a month now I haven't herd anything from any of my so called friends all I am to them is either an ATM or a piece of ass. It hurts to know you've been used reality isn't reality no more. and you try to find means to escape it. at this moment i am depressed lost and confused. i missed the deadline on my collage application because i couldn't afford the fee. my life is going down the toilet how did i get to this point. i seem to remember i had more friends then i could handle. i was doing great in school. boys weren't a real problem. and life was starting to look up. next thing i know I'm 22, jobless, broke, have no friends no lover. a useless piece of garbage cause that's how i feel people have treated me. they tossed me aside when they had no more use for me. so where does this leave me. it's been a long while since i felt the lovign embrace of another. Or happiness you get from hanging with a true friend. its been a while since I wrote a good piece of poetry. Or jotted down a mental philosophy where has my life gone. this morning I feel like the shit that's stuck on the bottom of your shoe and you can't seem to remove it. And the stench seems to linger every where you go.
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